GoJoeyMojo said:
I'm just flipping out a little over the amount of debt. "What if" scenarios keep popping into my head. What if I can't live on the allotted loans (I doubt I'll qualify for alternative loans)? What if I've lost all intellectual ability since college (I've been out a few years) and bomb the classes? And so on. I guess I'm overthinking this since I've never committed to such a large chunk of debt. I know I'll probably do well in the program. It's not in a prime location and I don't have family near the area, but I suppose that means less distractions, right?
you are not alone. "what if" plagues
everyone at some point if not a lot. taking the chance is what seperates YOU from some depressed person sipping their starbucks so they can just survive the day at their desk job at some corporation.
as far as being intellectually capable, i'm sure you're being hard on yourself. what's important is that you are truely dedicated and a hard worker. plus, you also have nothing but more wisdom and experience on your side assuming you're older. also, from what i've been told by numerous resources, don't take your pre reqs at a community college. you should not go from a good university to a worse one, it should be the other way around.
not to sound like zig ziggler, but going to med school is a risk like anything else. everyone there is in debt. what if you decide it's too tough? what if your post bac grades are poor and don't get into any med school? what if you can't pass organic? what if you get sick or fail out of med school? what if you don't pass your boards? what if you get charged with malpractice your first week on the job as a doctor? what if what if what if what if. f*ck 'what if' man. 30 years from now are you gonna look back and say you were too afraid to try? or you gonna atleast say you tried, or better yet (and more probable) succeed.
bottom line is for me personally, i'm scared sh*tless, but determined and excited as hell. i only had 8 more credit hours and i would of graduated with my BSN (nursing). but instead i dropped nursing, took my liberal arts degree, and applied to post bac for 2 years. i dropped what would of been a secure, well paying job to pursue my dream as a doctor. yeah i'm a late bloomer, but better late then never. i'm leaving behind my family, friends, and my incredibly hot ass asian girlfriend to go to school 9 hours away in a state that ranks top 5 in crime and one of the most expensive to live in. oh yeah, i'm in huge debt too. i plan on achieving my goal, but if for some reason i don't, i will know i atleast tried.