Hi, I've lurked in this forum throughout med school, and it has been useful. So now I have a problem to pose to peers and seniors. It's 1 month until my IM categorical residency, and this weekend I just started to panic to the point that I'm physically feeling like crap. I've been justifiably anxious about stuff before but it never made me feel like this. I haven't been very studious in med school and it's reflected in my exam scores (shelf and Steps). I basically did the minimum to pass. At one point in med school I was thinking of changing career paths but decided to hang on and at least complete the MD, and now I'm off to a 3-year residency. My last medicine rotation was 8+ months ago and I feel like I've forgotten so much and that my knowledge base is weak to begin with. The things that keep going through my mind are that I'm not ready, being afraid of mistakes/disappointing people/harming patients, whether I chose the right career.
So I have 2 questions; first is has anyone felt this way too and what did you do? I feel like it won't go away until I start internship and it hopefully turns out to be not as bad as I imagined (but then what if it were as bad or worse?).
Second is I really think I do need to do some reading, so if anyone was in the same boat, what materials might help? I did see some recommendations here http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=715458.
So I have 2 questions; first is has anyone felt this way too and what did you do? I feel like it won't go away until I start internship and it hopefully turns out to be not as bad as I imagined (but then what if it were as bad or worse?).
Second is I really think I do need to do some reading, so if anyone was in the same boat, what materials might help? I did see some recommendations here http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=715458.