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I decided to pursue medicine because of my interest in psychiatry. I've been always fascinated about the human mind, and thought that I would tremendously enjoy practicing psychiatry. I have always wanted to understand the nuerophysiology behind human mind and how neural network within the human brain ultimately manifests itself into various behaviors. With my tremendous interest in such ideas, I started medical school. I did very well in med school and received a very high board score. I dedicated few years into neuroscience research through a prestigious research fellowship, which ultimately culminated many publications; non related to psychiatry, but all in neuroscience. I did my 3rd year psych rotation in child psychiatry, and I did not enjoy it at all. I barely interacted with any of the kids, and all we did was meetings with parents, social workers, teachers, and changed their medicine and dosage. All those fantasies that I had about the human mind were non-existent through my experience during my rotation. I felt all we do in psychiatry is match up patient's behavior/characteristics to some already written protocol (DSM) in order to acquire a new name for the patient's behavior and then treat accordingly (again, based on very spelled out protocol). There was no creativity there for me, no intellectual stimulation, and left me with disappointment. I realize that I never got a good grasp of psychiatry and my rotation was probably not a good representation of the field. I maintained an open mind throughout my rotations, and have not truly found my calling. I did a month derm rotation, and I truly enjoyed it. I like the medicine behind derm, the patient interaction, especially that patients are healthy and I get to joke around and laugh with them. I liked the procedures, and the fact we treated many skin cancers everyday. But, there was still something missing, the intellectual stimulation that I get even thinking about the human brain and behavior. Now, I need to submit my residency application, and I am having a very difficult time making my final decision. I am very competitive for derm, and a lot of good programms for psych, but I don't know which rout I should take. I truly appreciate any comments you may have for me.