Hi everyone. I have been a "lurker" on this site (ie reading all the posts) for years now, but now I have finally taken the plunge and joined.
Hard to summarize my entire life into this little page (in a manner that other people will find worthwhile to read), and perhaps I will make one of those mdapplicants profiles. but for now, just a brief summary, so I can get part of the advice I am looking for.
I graduated from college in 2006. I then took some serious time off (duh...its 2009), as I truly was not 100% sure that medicine was something I wanted to commit myself to. I was a good student (GPA of 3.6) but perhaps not the most stellar, I excelled in all my pre-med courses, and am/was passionate about medicine, but I guess I just wanted to make sure - I felt there is/was no need to rush off to med school right away.
I taught science for 1 year, and while it was an *interesting* and eye opening experience and I am glad I did it, it was definitely not for me. Toward the end of the year, I studied for my MCAT, and took it shortly thereafter. I got a 30. Considered retaking, but after lots of thought and consideration (plus weighing in the fact that I was at the end of a difficult pregnancy), I decided that the chances of me improving SUBSTANTIALLY (ie 34 or above) were low (given the statistics), and the difference between a 30 and 31 is nil. So I moved on with the application.
In the meantime, that summer, I thought to myself, I really do love medicine, I want to find something to do where I can apply myself in this field for the time being! Applied for, and found, a position as a CRTA Fellow at NCI/NIH (prestigious fellowship, many apply, few are accepted, or so I was told). Did that for a year, and again, while I am glad I spent a full year doing f/t research, I learned that research, unequivocally, is NOT for me. The experience was wonderful, but also helped me realize that medicine is absolutely where I want to be - a career in the hard sciences would make me miserable in about 3 seconds.
I finished my fellowship at the NIH 2 months ago (was there just short of a year, we were forced to relocate for DH's job, I had my PI's absolute blessing and I have a great LOR from them) and have since moved and quickly found a job as a "research fellow" in a lab here, doing work that is very closely tied to what I was doing at the NIH. I thought (even though I didnt say this when I took the job) it would just be a summer job- I was hoping I would get off a waitlist, but the school I was waitlisted at, began yesterday, so to hell with that. I really hate where I am working now, you know when people talk about an awful "working environment?" well, I have got one. I hate the people I work with, I hate how things function in this lab, it is overall just incredibly frustrating. I have re-submitted my AMCAS for 2010, which just depresses me beyond belief. However, I just cannot see myself doing research in this lab (mostly because of the people, but also because of the nature of the work - the NCI was really cool and it was a great experience - but I dont love benchwork at all) for an entire year while I apply.
I have applied more broadly this year (DH has agreed that should we need to move, he will take some time off to get his MBA so we can be more flexible for my sake), and to more than 8 schools (which was a huge error). I am applying to MD schools only, and I do have numerous reasons for having made this decision. while moving around the country is an option, because of real family constraints (remember, I have a kid), leaving the country is absolutely not an option.
I also have a year of research experience under my belt, 3 publications (and a 4th has been submitted for publication - on which, for the first time, I will be listed as "first author" not a co-author), but I feel like I need to change venues and get out of this research environment before I just fall apart/pop/burst/whatever. I have no passion for what I do, and I feel like I am just angry about being here since I really dislike the people here and the fact that it is a wreck and it is just an unhappy place.
So, my question is, what can I do to supplement my application this year, but at the same time, that I WILL ENJOY. I feel like I have this urge inside me to do something to really really apply myself and help others - and I am not satiating that urge through research, which is just frustrating.
to summarize once more:
-graduated in 06. biology major. GPA 3.6. Science GPA 3.4
-mcat in 07: 30
-taught for 1 yr
-NCI/NIH CRTA Fellowship
-lots of extracurricular stuff during college (premed club president, on school paper, organized sciency events and speeches, etc)
- research as an undergrad for all 4 summers (2 publications from my work)
-tons of volunteer experience (hospice volunteer ~1x/wk for about 8 years now, some nursing home volunteering too, "big brother/big sister" type program for teenagers from broken homes, adoption agency, - and those are only the ones that are "long term," not the "I volunteered at a homeless shelter one summer for 2 months." all of these are 2 years or more)
-tons of shadowing experience so yes, I know this is what I want, and I have learned a ton about the health care industry through shadowing.
I am looking to find something to do that will truly make me feel like I am HELPING PEOPLE this coming year.
$ is not an issue, so honestly, it does not need to be a paid position, I am fine with full time as a volunteer if it will not be like a "well call you when we need you" type thing, but something that I am required to "commit myself to" for a real 40 hours/wk. (as you see above - I do alot of volunteering, but all the things I am involved with - sure, I can do a few more hours here or there, but they are not "full time" type options)
It is too late to do a SMP and I have spoken to two directors of admissions at two medical schools, who both told me that would be a waste of time for me anyway, and a 3.6 is "fine."
I was thinking of an EMT-B program? and then I can volunteer as an EMT (but when I say volunteer I mean "full time shifts" of volunteering!)
or perhaps getting involved in some sort of clinical research, but again - I think i would be frustrated in that I would not be helping people in a "hands on" kind of way.
getting a NHA (nursing home administrator) license and doing that for the year (but then OTOH what nursing home would even look my way if I am hoping to leave in a few months)
any and all suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
feel free to criticize my info all you want. I want constructive criticism.
Hard to summarize my entire life into this little page (in a manner that other people will find worthwhile to read), and perhaps I will make one of those mdapplicants profiles. but for now, just a brief summary, so I can get part of the advice I am looking for.
I graduated from college in 2006. I then took some serious time off (duh...its 2009), as I truly was not 100% sure that medicine was something I wanted to commit myself to. I was a good student (GPA of 3.6) but perhaps not the most stellar, I excelled in all my pre-med courses, and am/was passionate about medicine, but I guess I just wanted to make sure - I felt there is/was no need to rush off to med school right away.
I taught science for 1 year, and while it was an *interesting* and eye opening experience and I am glad I did it, it was definitely not for me. Toward the end of the year, I studied for my MCAT, and took it shortly thereafter. I got a 30. Considered retaking, but after lots of thought and consideration (plus weighing in the fact that I was at the end of a difficult pregnancy), I decided that the chances of me improving SUBSTANTIALLY (ie 34 or above) were low (given the statistics), and the difference between a 30 and 31 is nil. So I moved on with the application.
In the meantime, that summer, I thought to myself, I really do love medicine, I want to find something to do where I can apply myself in this field for the time being! Applied for, and found, a position as a CRTA Fellow at NCI/NIH (prestigious fellowship, many apply, few are accepted, or so I was told). Did that for a year, and again, while I am glad I spent a full year doing f/t research, I learned that research, unequivocally, is NOT for me. The experience was wonderful, but also helped me realize that medicine is absolutely where I want to be - a career in the hard sciences would make me miserable in about 3 seconds.
I finished my fellowship at the NIH 2 months ago (was there just short of a year, we were forced to relocate for DH's job, I had my PI's absolute blessing and I have a great LOR from them) and have since moved and quickly found a job as a "research fellow" in a lab here, doing work that is very closely tied to what I was doing at the NIH. I thought (even though I didnt say this when I took the job) it would just be a summer job- I was hoping I would get off a waitlist, but the school I was waitlisted at, began yesterday, so to hell with that. I really hate where I am working now, you know when people talk about an awful "working environment?" well, I have got one. I hate the people I work with, I hate how things function in this lab, it is overall just incredibly frustrating. I have re-submitted my AMCAS for 2010, which just depresses me beyond belief. However, I just cannot see myself doing research in this lab (mostly because of the people, but also because of the nature of the work - the NCI was really cool and it was a great experience - but I dont love benchwork at all) for an entire year while I apply.
I have applied more broadly this year (DH has agreed that should we need to move, he will take some time off to get his MBA so we can be more flexible for my sake), and to more than 8 schools (which was a huge error). I am applying to MD schools only, and I do have numerous reasons for having made this decision. while moving around the country is an option, because of real family constraints (remember, I have a kid), leaving the country is absolutely not an option.
I also have a year of research experience under my belt, 3 publications (and a 4th has been submitted for publication - on which, for the first time, I will be listed as "first author" not a co-author), but I feel like I need to change venues and get out of this research environment before I just fall apart/pop/burst/whatever. I have no passion for what I do, and I feel like I am just angry about being here since I really dislike the people here and the fact that it is a wreck and it is just an unhappy place.
So, my question is, what can I do to supplement my application this year, but at the same time, that I WILL ENJOY. I feel like I have this urge inside me to do something to really really apply myself and help others - and I am not satiating that urge through research, which is just frustrating.
to summarize once more:
-graduated in 06. biology major. GPA 3.6. Science GPA 3.4
-mcat in 07: 30
-taught for 1 yr
-NCI/NIH CRTA Fellowship
-lots of extracurricular stuff during college (premed club president, on school paper, organized sciency events and speeches, etc)
- research as an undergrad for all 4 summers (2 publications from my work)
-tons of volunteer experience (hospice volunteer ~1x/wk for about 8 years now, some nursing home volunteering too, "big brother/big sister" type program for teenagers from broken homes, adoption agency, - and those are only the ones that are "long term," not the "I volunteered at a homeless shelter one summer for 2 months." all of these are 2 years or more)
-tons of shadowing experience so yes, I know this is what I want, and I have learned a ton about the health care industry through shadowing.
I am looking to find something to do that will truly make me feel like I am HELPING PEOPLE this coming year.
$ is not an issue, so honestly, it does not need to be a paid position, I am fine with full time as a volunteer if it will not be like a "well call you when we need you" type thing, but something that I am required to "commit myself to" for a real 40 hours/wk. (as you see above - I do alot of volunteering, but all the things I am involved with - sure, I can do a few more hours here or there, but they are not "full time" type options)
It is too late to do a SMP and I have spoken to two directors of admissions at two medical schools, who both told me that would be a waste of time for me anyway, and a 3.6 is "fine."
I was thinking of an EMT-B program? and then I can volunteer as an EMT (but when I say volunteer I mean "full time shifts" of volunteering!)
or perhaps getting involved in some sort of clinical research, but again - I think i would be frustrated in that I would not be helping people in a "hands on" kind of way.
getting a NHA (nursing home administrator) license and doing that for the year (but then OTOH what nursing home would even look my way if I am hoping to leave in a few months)
any and all suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
feel free to criticize my info all you want. I want constructive criticism.