I made a topic before on a different subject, but that one got no replies. Let's see if this one fares better.
This was my first round of applying to doctoral programs in clinical psychology. I only applied to three programs--insane, I know, but I'm quite poor, and didn't have the time to go through the process of getting fee waivers due to my wonderful undergrad institution throwing requirements at me at the last second that made my final semester packed to the rafters in terms of time commitments. Getting my letters of recommendation, my personal statement, and all of that were time consuming enough. Not to mention that even with application fee waivers, sending out GRE score reports and my transcripts is still prohibitively expensive for me.
Moving on, I applied to:
Adelphi University, PhD. Rejected sans interview. Unsurprising, I have no research experience, but felt I ought to try.
Long Island University, CW Post PsyD. Also rejected sans interview. Surprising, considering...
Rutgers University, PsyD- Interviewed 2/27
When I went to the interview, I found that I unwittingly made it to the interview stage of one of the best PsyD programs out there. Lucky me. No joking there, I was quite happy to be there. But the more I spoke to people, the more I was...anxious, I guess. At 23, I was the youngest person there, right out of my BA while everyone else either had their Master's or had been working with serious mental illness for years. Most of them had some form of publications.
In comparison, my specs as of now:
- Bachelor of the Arts, Stony Brook University, 3.61 GPA, 3.7 or so psych GPA. Note, transferred to SBU from Brooklyn College, where they had NO research opportunities
- 1390 general GRE. 760 Verbal, 630 Quantitative. ...I suck at math. >_>
- 730 Psych GRE. I was aiming for 750ish, but I'm not complaining.
- Two years working as a psychiatry research assistant. Said study was a four site wide double blinded drug trial, so as an undergrad, all I did was the menial stuff. However, there are just about no opportunities for doing one's own research at Stony Brook for what I want to do, and I know that goodness of fit between one's desires, experiences, and programs is. The best I got from this was sueprvising severely behaviorally disordered children (comorbid ADHD and ODD/CD), watching the CBT Parent Management Training sessions, and two letters of recommendation, one from the CBT therapist and the other from the psychiatrist.
- To drive the above point home in a shorter way: I've never run any research or published/presented a thing. Pushing for this at SBU didn't yield results.
...so overall, compared to the others at interview day, I didn't seem to have a whole lot going for me. Those without research had at the least worked as counselors in some fashion. I actually kind of wonder why Rutgers was interested. Interview day itself was a mix of good and bad. I feel they hosed me in the personal interviews: as someone right out of their BA, I can only have so much experience. Basically all I have is my RA experience and theoretical foundations, as far as I see it. And I do have very strong foundations...in psychodynamic therapy. I was interviewed by a CBT therapist and a family systems therapist. I feel this didn't explore my talents in the right way at all, but there's nothing I can do about that. I did great during a group interview and showed what I knew from a dynamic perspective there. And at the end of the day when everyone was told they could go, I was told I couldn't because someone requested to speak with me; a third year grad student who was heavily into dynamic therapy. I impressed him and the admission's coordinator by being able to comparatively hold my own in a conversation on dynamic theory with him as well as being extremely personable. I had them laughing a bunch.
Needless to say, I'm not very surprised that I was rejected. I seemed like the underdog from the inception. The personal interviews didn't tap my strongest quality. And the great talk with the grad student was unofficial and thus had questionable bearing (if any) on my chances. I've also heard that at such high levels, getting an offer is often a crap shoot.
The thrust of all this is that I'm curious and somewhat anxious as to how to proceed from here (hi, topic title). I want to improve my application for future rounds, but have no idea how to begin doing so. I need to begin working immediately: I have bills to pay, student debt repayments creeping up on me, and no support to meet these obligations. The few research oriented positions I've found are more RA positions that won't help much. One position is a two year commitment that precludes me from doing research on the side by sheer merit of being full time, and experienced gained there will have no goodness of fit and questionable bearing anyways. I literally cannot afford to simply volunteer my time on a study in hopes of presenting/publishing in some fashion and praying I get hired on. I need stability quite soon. Searching in New York, any position I've seen that entails working with mental illness in any fashion useful to me requires a Master's Degree. Obviously I feel hemmed in and at a loss for what to do to improve my chances next time. I'm willing to bet a lot of my assumptions here aren't right and there are means to find stability and worthwhile experience...but I haven't the slightest idea where to look. Thus I come here asking for advice.
I realize, of course, that I was rejected from a very good program. It shouldn't bother me. And for the most part, it doesn't, apart from being hosed on the interviews-- didn't feel like a fair fight. I can obviously apply to other programs next round. But honestly speaking, the goodness of fit I found at Rutgers is perfect; despite the interviews not tapping my potential, I learned a great deal about the environment from unofficial talks with faculty and the grad students. The fact that they're funded better than most PsyDs is also alluring. They're a top choice for me, and considering I was interviewed, I'd like to try again...I just want to make my next attempt worthwhile.
Long post. I have a habit of doing that. So, for those of you who stuck around, any advice for this lost kid? I really, really don't relish the idea of applying to any program again, as the process is annoying and stressful...but I've known that I want to be a therapist since before I went to college, and spent a long time researching the way I felt was best to get there. So I'm willing to hunker down and do it again. But without an idea of where to start, I'm feeling disheartened and anxious.
This was my first round of applying to doctoral programs in clinical psychology. I only applied to three programs--insane, I know, but I'm quite poor, and didn't have the time to go through the process of getting fee waivers due to my wonderful undergrad institution throwing requirements at me at the last second that made my final semester packed to the rafters in terms of time commitments. Getting my letters of recommendation, my personal statement, and all of that were time consuming enough. Not to mention that even with application fee waivers, sending out GRE score reports and my transcripts is still prohibitively expensive for me.
Moving on, I applied to:
Adelphi University, PhD. Rejected sans interview. Unsurprising, I have no research experience, but felt I ought to try.
Long Island University, CW Post PsyD. Also rejected sans interview. Surprising, considering...
Rutgers University, PsyD- Interviewed 2/27
When I went to the interview, I found that I unwittingly made it to the interview stage of one of the best PsyD programs out there. Lucky me. No joking there, I was quite happy to be there. But the more I spoke to people, the more I was...anxious, I guess. At 23, I was the youngest person there, right out of my BA while everyone else either had their Master's or had been working with serious mental illness for years. Most of them had some form of publications.
In comparison, my specs as of now:
- Bachelor of the Arts, Stony Brook University, 3.61 GPA, 3.7 or so psych GPA. Note, transferred to SBU from Brooklyn College, where they had NO research opportunities
- 1390 general GRE. 760 Verbal, 630 Quantitative. ...I suck at math. >_>
- 730 Psych GRE. I was aiming for 750ish, but I'm not complaining.
- Two years working as a psychiatry research assistant. Said study was a four site wide double blinded drug trial, so as an undergrad, all I did was the menial stuff. However, there are just about no opportunities for doing one's own research at Stony Brook for what I want to do, and I know that goodness of fit between one's desires, experiences, and programs is. The best I got from this was sueprvising severely behaviorally disordered children (comorbid ADHD and ODD/CD), watching the CBT Parent Management Training sessions, and two letters of recommendation, one from the CBT therapist and the other from the psychiatrist.
- To drive the above point home in a shorter way: I've never run any research or published/presented a thing. Pushing for this at SBU didn't yield results.
...so overall, compared to the others at interview day, I didn't seem to have a whole lot going for me. Those without research had at the least worked as counselors in some fashion. I actually kind of wonder why Rutgers was interested. Interview day itself was a mix of good and bad. I feel they hosed me in the personal interviews: as someone right out of their BA, I can only have so much experience. Basically all I have is my RA experience and theoretical foundations, as far as I see it. And I do have very strong foundations...in psychodynamic therapy. I was interviewed by a CBT therapist and a family systems therapist. I feel this didn't explore my talents in the right way at all, but there's nothing I can do about that. I did great during a group interview and showed what I knew from a dynamic perspective there. And at the end of the day when everyone was told they could go, I was told I couldn't because someone requested to speak with me; a third year grad student who was heavily into dynamic therapy. I impressed him and the admission's coordinator by being able to comparatively hold my own in a conversation on dynamic theory with him as well as being extremely personable. I had them laughing a bunch.
Needless to say, I'm not very surprised that I was rejected. I seemed like the underdog from the inception. The personal interviews didn't tap my strongest quality. And the great talk with the grad student was unofficial and thus had questionable bearing (if any) on my chances. I've also heard that at such high levels, getting an offer is often a crap shoot.
The thrust of all this is that I'm curious and somewhat anxious as to how to proceed from here (hi, topic title). I want to improve my application for future rounds, but have no idea how to begin doing so. I need to begin working immediately: I have bills to pay, student debt repayments creeping up on me, and no support to meet these obligations. The few research oriented positions I've found are more RA positions that won't help much. One position is a two year commitment that precludes me from doing research on the side by sheer merit of being full time, and experienced gained there will have no goodness of fit and questionable bearing anyways. I literally cannot afford to simply volunteer my time on a study in hopes of presenting/publishing in some fashion and praying I get hired on. I need stability quite soon. Searching in New York, any position I've seen that entails working with mental illness in any fashion useful to me requires a Master's Degree. Obviously I feel hemmed in and at a loss for what to do to improve my chances next time. I'm willing to bet a lot of my assumptions here aren't right and there are means to find stability and worthwhile experience...but I haven't the slightest idea where to look. Thus I come here asking for advice.
I realize, of course, that I was rejected from a very good program. It shouldn't bother me. And for the most part, it doesn't, apart from being hosed on the interviews-- didn't feel like a fair fight. I can obviously apply to other programs next round. But honestly speaking, the goodness of fit I found at Rutgers is perfect; despite the interviews not tapping my potential, I learned a great deal about the environment from unofficial talks with faculty and the grad students. The fact that they're funded better than most PsyDs is also alluring. They're a top choice for me, and considering I was interviewed, I'd like to try again...I just want to make my next attempt worthwhile.
Long post. I have a habit of doing that. So, for those of you who stuck around, any advice for this lost kid? I really, really don't relish the idea of applying to any program again, as the process is annoying and stressful...but I've known that I want to be a therapist since before I went to college, and spent a long time researching the way I felt was best to get there. So I'm willing to hunker down and do it again. But without an idea of where to start, I'm feeling disheartened and anxious.