it's not your place to be posting this on a public forum. and, fyi, it's not so secret what school you go to. what makes you think your classmates don't read this? if you weren't so oblivious you'd change your username, you'd make your previous posts unsearchable. all things considered, you walk through life without a clue and that needs to change, now's your chance. You're lucky you're repeating the year. L-U-C-K-Y. Have a little grace and sit down and order a giant slice of humble pie and eat it slowly while doing some serious soul searching. good luck with everything. i'm sorry for you loss.