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I'm finally looking for a catharsis in an environment that will (hopefully) be more supportive because I'm coming out: I love psychiatry. But, as the title says, I have so many reservations before I can feel comfortable committing and only apply to psych residencies. Silly things that my ego is holding onto like prestige, pay, laying down my stethoscope, and other things that my spouse is holding onto like safety, job satisfaction, and paying back my soul-crushing loans.
When I admit interest in the field, I am unanimously met with statements along the lines of "That would be such a shame - you'd be letting your talents go to waste" and "you know people only go into psychiatry because they have low board scores". (I should note that up to this point, I was planning on applying to anesthesia primarily but also some psych programs.) While I hope I could eventual be at peace with these shallow views of the field, I find this sentiment, which is voiced very frequently to me, to be incredibly frustrating.
I'm an off-cycle 4th year who will be finished with rotations soon, and at this point, I can confidently say that my psych rotations have been the only ones I've really enjoyed - I don't dread going in the morning and am actually sad when they end. I enjoy the patients, the pathology, and most of the other professionals in the field. That said, I also do enjoy working with my hands -- doing procedures -- so that along with my ego and the stigma are the only things holding me back.
Did you have these same internal conflicts about finally committing to the field? Are you happy in residency and beyond? I'm not sure if I'm looking for permission to love the field or if I just have a desire to hear others say that yeah, all the stigma sucks, but you get over it.
When I admit interest in the field, I am unanimously met with statements along the lines of "That would be such a shame - you'd be letting your talents go to waste" and "you know people only go into psychiatry because they have low board scores". (I should note that up to this point, I was planning on applying to anesthesia primarily but also some psych programs.) While I hope I could eventual be at peace with these shallow views of the field, I find this sentiment, which is voiced very frequently to me, to be incredibly frustrating.
I'm an off-cycle 4th year who will be finished with rotations soon, and at this point, I can confidently say that my psych rotations have been the only ones I've really enjoyed - I don't dread going in the morning and am actually sad when they end. I enjoy the patients, the pathology, and most of the other professionals in the field. That said, I also do enjoy working with my hands -- doing procedures -- so that along with my ego and the stigma are the only things holding me back.
Did you have these same internal conflicts about finally committing to the field? Are you happy in residency and beyond? I'm not sure if I'm looking for permission to love the field or if I just have a desire to hear others say that yeah, all the stigma sucks, but you get over it.