OK, harsh it IS. Caps for emphasis only
WHERE did you apply? To the 'Ivy League' Residencies? To the ones that look good on the wall or are close to home? Did you actually GO and rotate thru any of these places? Do well?
If not? I'd not bother with them unless you are a majorly impressive candidate which doesn't seem the case here. sorry.
OK, here it is:
Apply where you will get your hands dirty, where they NEED Residents due to high patient loads. NO ONE WANTS THESE BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LOOK AS GOOD ON THE WALL--but that is total Bull. You will get such stellar training, hands above everywhere else. Huge numbers of procedures, hard calls, but so? You will LIVE, breathe and eat hospital--no matter where you go so WHO CARES if it isn't a beautiful city? You'll never see it anyway. When you do have time, you'l sleep, work out, swim (use the hospital PT/pool at night...bribe someone and get in
ARE YOU WILLING TO DO THAT? ARE YOU PHYSICALLY UP TO PAR? If you are a meek, mild mannered person--impressions will work against you. Learn to look up, stand up, and charge ahead for what you want.
BUT BE SURE IT IS WHAT YOU WANT AND NOT SOMEONE ELSE'S IDEAS OF WHAT YOU NEED! (we had many many students forced into med school that hated it--this is the USA and we can choose! CHOOSE!)
*I'm from Hawaii; mixed nationality. We had many foreign students still stuck in the traditional 'meek mild mannered' persona. That does NOT go across well for medicine--so if you were raised that way too, change your demeanor. NOW. Take classes in dance, martial arts, aerobics, work out--to get OUT there and start feeling good about who YOU are. In Hawaii, its called 'shame', and it holds many many of us back to break out and be 'out there' and not laid back and 'whatever' not wiling to go outside that mold. Against tradition is HARD. I lost a lot of frends--but I was HAPPY.
This many failures says that you are NOT comfortable with your own life choices to me. Sorry, harsh.
Apply to inner city crowded, huge patient load get-those-hands-dirty we will take you because we NEED you...and LEARN like no place else! It is worth it! GREAT training!
Also, Apply to: Botsford DO program has a GREAT Transitional rotating Internship in case your Residency choice doesn't pan out. But you will never get in unless they know you--have you done well MS3-4 rotations? CLARIFY please.
You applied 'all over' on your updated info: NO. You will seem too desperate. You do not seem to truly know where you want. I'd do a transitional year. But GO THERE and work there and let them know who you are because these are hard to get into if you didn't rotate thru or do well there. IF you did, and did well--get one of THOSE Attendings to write you a letter of rec.
TIPS:
1. Make NO excuses! you will seem cowardly--admit you were unprepared, SPEAK UP and say you don't test well, and what you DID do to remedy that--as in take a prep test course!
2. Stay busy. Work as near to your chosen field as possible while waiting--even as a volunteer. If you cannot afford that, then work in a lab...etc.
3. Stay positive, stay healthy, do NOT self flagellate, do hypnosis if needed, meditation--to re-program the 'failure consciousness' and get positive and make it. Work out, take 'out there' classes as mentioned to get OUTSIDE your own limitations... to keep endorphins pumping and stay healthy and energized.
*also find out what programs have open slots! APPLY now. Many are desperate for Residents. Try WVa (good training, poor poor population)!etc.
Good luck.
Sorry so longwinded