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hey all,
it's been about 2 months since I started this job and i'm still in floor training. The reason why I consider quitting is because I don't think the amount of growth and learning experiences I will gain from this job is worth the pay, stress, pressure, and belittling.
This thought started when I began my floor training. I've heard nothing but discouraging words from my trainer. I don't think the trainer is there to teach me how to become a scribe but is there to remind me that I am not a good fit for this job. Initially, I had a difficult time charting because my company had this new curriculum where during classroom training, we only practiced a total of 3 charts before floor training. (which we didn't even go over the correct answers for). Because I discovered that I was not as prepared as I hoped for floor training (and because my trainer knows more and have been working longer), I was very receptive to the initial criticisms as I saw it as a way to create a guideline of to-do or not to-do when scribing. However, later on, my trainer started going back and forth with her statements and doubted and corrected every single detail of my chart to the way SHE would do not what a SCRIBE would do. I say this because I saw how my chief scribe does her charts and I did exactly what my chief scribe will do which my trainer told me to correct. So, I got lost. there is no one else who can tell me what a right way and wrong way to scribe except my trainer and she kept going back and forth with the right and the wrong. I started doubting all the things I did, because she was constantly discouraging and criticizing (which I didn't even know if it was even constructive criticism). I began noticing that she was belittling me as a person and overly condescending when she is the same pre-med student as me. She would be so nice and respectful to everyone BUT me. She was not receptive to my questions but just rolled her eyes as if she has given up on me. Because I am in a position to learn, I have no choice but to trust and do what my trainer tells me to do in regards to writing my charts, but I am just not learning anything from her at this point because she is going back and forth with her answers.
As much as I know that, if I get through this, I will be scribing on my own, but at this point, I don't even know if I'll get through floor training, because my performance has been decreasing after her doubts in my capabilities made me lose confidence in the information I wrote.
Like most of other people who are scribes, continuing this scribing job is not a life or death situation for me. I have a passion to learn and help the physicians I will work with, but not for the company, although my trainer treats this company like her baby and expects me to do the same.
I been thinking if this overcoming this challenge is worth the amount of stress, pressure and time wasted during my precious gap year and I don't think it's worth it. However, I don't want to make such decision lightly or be seen as a quitter. I also want to make sure that I'm not making this decision just based on my emotions but make sure I make the most logical decision that is best for me. I will likely talk with my chief scribe about this, so I would like to gather as much thought as I can. Thanks for reading this long blurb. I appreciate your thoughts.
it's been about 2 months since I started this job and i'm still in floor training. The reason why I consider quitting is because I don't think the amount of growth and learning experiences I will gain from this job is worth the pay, stress, pressure, and belittling.
This thought started when I began my floor training. I've heard nothing but discouraging words from my trainer. I don't think the trainer is there to teach me how to become a scribe but is there to remind me that I am not a good fit for this job. Initially, I had a difficult time charting because my company had this new curriculum where during classroom training, we only practiced a total of 3 charts before floor training. (which we didn't even go over the correct answers for). Because I discovered that I was not as prepared as I hoped for floor training (and because my trainer knows more and have been working longer), I was very receptive to the initial criticisms as I saw it as a way to create a guideline of to-do or not to-do when scribing. However, later on, my trainer started going back and forth with her statements and doubted and corrected every single detail of my chart to the way SHE would do not what a SCRIBE would do. I say this because I saw how my chief scribe does her charts and I did exactly what my chief scribe will do which my trainer told me to correct. So, I got lost. there is no one else who can tell me what a right way and wrong way to scribe except my trainer and she kept going back and forth with the right and the wrong. I started doubting all the things I did, because she was constantly discouraging and criticizing (which I didn't even know if it was even constructive criticism). I began noticing that she was belittling me as a person and overly condescending when she is the same pre-med student as me. She would be so nice and respectful to everyone BUT me. She was not receptive to my questions but just rolled her eyes as if she has given up on me. Because I am in a position to learn, I have no choice but to trust and do what my trainer tells me to do in regards to writing my charts, but I am just not learning anything from her at this point because she is going back and forth with her answers.
As much as I know that, if I get through this, I will be scribing on my own, but at this point, I don't even know if I'll get through floor training, because my performance has been decreasing after her doubts in my capabilities made me lose confidence in the information I wrote.
Like most of other people who are scribes, continuing this scribing job is not a life or death situation for me. I have a passion to learn and help the physicians I will work with, but not for the company, although my trainer treats this company like her baby and expects me to do the same.
I been thinking if this overcoming this challenge is worth the amount of stress, pressure and time wasted during my precious gap year and I don't think it's worth it. However, I don't want to make such decision lightly or be seen as a quitter. I also want to make sure that I'm not making this decision just based on my emotions but make sure I make the most logical decision that is best for me. I will likely talk with my chief scribe about this, so I would like to gather as much thought as I can. Thanks for reading this long blurb. I appreciate your thoughts.