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Hey guys. I’m about to start my fourth year and am still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I’m thinking about taking a research year, to not only strengthen my CV (I only have two abstracts and a poster pres at my institution) but to help me decide on what to do (figuring out between ophtho, ENT or medicine subspecialty). I'm currently having a great deal of anxiety about this, and it seems like every day I change my mind about things (probably because I am panicking). I've settled on these because I enjoy patient contact and having longitudinal relationships with them, as well as the ability to work with my hands. I'm reaching out here because I clearly need advice, as I change my mind on this almost every day and am starting to have insomnia and panic attacks regarding my current situation.
For reference, I go to a top 20 med school, Step 1 >250, mixed H/HP clinical grades (H in fam medicine, psychiatry, surgery, and a graded elective course in radiology), not AOA. I was going to go into another surgical sub-specialty until the middle of May, but when I was on my sub-internship in the field, I unfortunately found out I couldn't actually see myself doing it (the surgeries, anatomy, personalities, etc were not for me, and I never got experience in this field during clerkship year). When I spoke to my institution, my dean said that a research year could be a huge red flag if you aren't a publishing machine and you don't know exactly what you are going to do research in, which makes sense, and makes taking an extra year a bit risky.
I see my options as such:
1. Don't take a research year and go into medicine: This offers the widest range of possibilities after residency (in terms of fellowships) and is the only route I could reasonably take if I did not take a research year. I think I could be happy doing GI or interventional cards, but I worry that my lack of research and my HP in medicine will keep me from matching at a good institution, making fellowship more of a question than guarantee. I know that I wouldn't be happy if I was just a general internal medicine doctor, which also gives me some concern about this.
2. Do take a dedicated research year and figure out what field to go into: this would make ENT or ophtho available as options. I'm currently on an ophtho rotation and really like it; lots of patient care, generally healthy-ish people (lots of diabetes, though), cool procedures that aren't 5-6 hours a piece, and the eye is actually pretty cool. I already have ophtho research lined up, as well. If I took the research year, I'd also like to explore ENT as it also seems to fit what I want out of medicine. I'd get a little bit of time to breathe and hopefully, be more clear-headed in my approach to this. At my school, they do not charge us a full year of tuition if we take a research year (we still pay for housing and a small fee to keep us enrolled as a student for hospital privileges), which means the financial burden is not immediately severe (you would lose a year of attending salary, but I'd rather feel confident in what I was doing and be happy than getting another 300k, I guess).
Any advice would be appreciated. I keep ****ting on myself almost every day about my choices and thinking what a ****-up I've been for not deciding sooner, so I'd like to figure this out...
For reference, I go to a top 20 med school, Step 1 >250, mixed H/HP clinical grades (H in fam medicine, psychiatry, surgery, and a graded elective course in radiology), not AOA. I was going to go into another surgical sub-specialty until the middle of May, but when I was on my sub-internship in the field, I unfortunately found out I couldn't actually see myself doing it (the surgeries, anatomy, personalities, etc were not for me, and I never got experience in this field during clerkship year). When I spoke to my institution, my dean said that a research year could be a huge red flag if you aren't a publishing machine and you don't know exactly what you are going to do research in, which makes sense, and makes taking an extra year a bit risky.
I see my options as such:
1. Don't take a research year and go into medicine: This offers the widest range of possibilities after residency (in terms of fellowships) and is the only route I could reasonably take if I did not take a research year. I think I could be happy doing GI or interventional cards, but I worry that my lack of research and my HP in medicine will keep me from matching at a good institution, making fellowship more of a question than guarantee. I know that I wouldn't be happy if I was just a general internal medicine doctor, which also gives me some concern about this.
2. Do take a dedicated research year and figure out what field to go into: this would make ENT or ophtho available as options. I'm currently on an ophtho rotation and really like it; lots of patient care, generally healthy-ish people (lots of diabetes, though), cool procedures that aren't 5-6 hours a piece, and the eye is actually pretty cool. I already have ophtho research lined up, as well. If I took the research year, I'd also like to explore ENT as it also seems to fit what I want out of medicine. I'd get a little bit of time to breathe and hopefully, be more clear-headed in my approach to this. At my school, they do not charge us a full year of tuition if we take a research year (we still pay for housing and a small fee to keep us enrolled as a student for hospital privileges), which means the financial burden is not immediately severe (you would lose a year of attending salary, but I'd rather feel confident in what I was doing and be happy than getting another 300k, I guess).
Any advice would be appreciated. I keep ****ting on myself almost every day about my choices and thinking what a ****-up I've been for not deciding sooner, so I'd like to figure this out...