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Time for my biannual thread that is actually serious.
I started a rotation in the ED at the local hospital. The pharmacist there is this brilliant-ass neuro/psych specialist that impresses the hell out of me. The surgeons and ED docs respect him like mad. He really gets into it, too. I've jogged up and down more steps than I've ever wanted to in my entire life in two days responding to trauma pages.
So to my point - my first day within a 15 minute span, actually my first 15 minutes ever, we get a woman with a subarachnoid hemorrhage, an MI/car wreck (guy gets MI, then drives truck into tree), and a bad DKA case. 3 serious issues all at once. It was nutso, people running everywhere. 1 dies, 1 goes brain dead, 1 is ok.
Now this is what I can't wrap my head around - I watched a guy die in front of my eyes, yet I was completely unaffected. I assume after a while, you just get desensitized to it all, but this is first day, heck, first few minutes, and it didn't even phase me. I just forgot and moved on.
I'm kinda freaked out..not that I saw a guy die per se, but that it didn't affect me at all. It's not like pharmacy school exposed it to me that much. I assumed that at the very least the first few people that I saw die would make me anxious at least. Maybe it was just because everyone else was so calm...death in front of their eyes was just an every day thing to them. Maybe I got the same vibe via osmosis, I dunno.
The irony of worrying about not worrying about something....
I started a rotation in the ED at the local hospital. The pharmacist there is this brilliant-ass neuro/psych specialist that impresses the hell out of me. The surgeons and ED docs respect him like mad. He really gets into it, too. I've jogged up and down more steps than I've ever wanted to in my entire life in two days responding to trauma pages.
So to my point - my first day within a 15 minute span, actually my first 15 minutes ever, we get a woman with a subarachnoid hemorrhage, an MI/car wreck (guy gets MI, then drives truck into tree), and a bad DKA case. 3 serious issues all at once. It was nutso, people running everywhere. 1 dies, 1 goes brain dead, 1 is ok.
Now this is what I can't wrap my head around - I watched a guy die in front of my eyes, yet I was completely unaffected. I assume after a while, you just get desensitized to it all, but this is first day, heck, first few minutes, and it didn't even phase me. I just forgot and moved on.
I'm kinda freaked out..not that I saw a guy die per se, but that it didn't affect me at all. It's not like pharmacy school exposed it to me that much. I assumed that at the very least the first few people that I saw die would make me anxious at least. Maybe it was just because everyone else was so calm...death in front of their eyes was just an every day thing to them. Maybe I got the same vibe via osmosis, I dunno.
The irony of worrying about not worrying about something....