Hey guys,
A while back when I failed CS, I received practical/supportive advise from this place, really appreciated then, thought maybe I could reach out to this place once more. I know many here have gone through what I have gone through, some are now attendings, fellows, etc, successful in their careers, and above all treating patients with extreme satisfaction
Eventually I want to become one.
Quick introduction, I am PGY2 (just turned), at fairly prestigious IM program. I finished intern year with ups and downs like a lot of people, with performance evals about average overall, but without running into any difficulties from attendings or residents. Was fairly a smooth path until after quick week vacation finishing intern year, when I returned to start resident year, I received email from my associate PD that we need to talk. Long story short, one of the attending in my last rotation didn't think that I could be qualified to be resident, emailed the PD with similar request, my performance was questioned during the PD meeting and I was put on "pre-remediation stage". That is - to have continuous feedback with my clinic director, chief, not to have supervisory role until later in the year, and to ensure I develop necessary skills to become an independent resident till then.
Since, I have been struggling with confidence. When expressing my concerns to the primary PD, he was exceptionally nice and didn't think that with my enthusiasm, I would lack in any way once half way through the academic year, and he seemed less worried. However, I after receiving the news, I have had some "inner voice" channeling through my insecurities, telling me I was inadequate, my assessment and plan were wrong, casting doubt on even the simple cases. I realize there is definite psychologic process going on, perhaps a component of adjustment disorder with the recent stressor, but I am not sure exactly how to best overcome it except to face the fears and go with the best of my ability. I am certain that I am not the only one who have struggled with such anxiety in their journey to becoming a self-sufficient, competent physician.
To those who have underwent such hardship, how did you surmount it? How did you overcome self-doubt? What are practical ways to improve through such difficulty? I don't want this to ever be a set-back, but a boost to my learning curve which may have been lagging slightly behind.
I really want to get better..
Thanks SDN.
A while back when I failed CS, I received practical/supportive advise from this place, really appreciated then, thought maybe I could reach out to this place once more. I know many here have gone through what I have gone through, some are now attendings, fellows, etc, successful in their careers, and above all treating patients with extreme satisfaction
Eventually I want to become one.
Quick introduction, I am PGY2 (just turned), at fairly prestigious IM program. I finished intern year with ups and downs like a lot of people, with performance evals about average overall, but without running into any difficulties from attendings or residents. Was fairly a smooth path until after quick week vacation finishing intern year, when I returned to start resident year, I received email from my associate PD that we need to talk. Long story short, one of the attending in my last rotation didn't think that I could be qualified to be resident, emailed the PD with similar request, my performance was questioned during the PD meeting and I was put on "pre-remediation stage". That is - to have continuous feedback with my clinic director, chief, not to have supervisory role until later in the year, and to ensure I develop necessary skills to become an independent resident till then.
Since, I have been struggling with confidence. When expressing my concerns to the primary PD, he was exceptionally nice and didn't think that with my enthusiasm, I would lack in any way once half way through the academic year, and he seemed less worried. However, I after receiving the news, I have had some "inner voice" channeling through my insecurities, telling me I was inadequate, my assessment and plan were wrong, casting doubt on even the simple cases. I realize there is definite psychologic process going on, perhaps a component of adjustment disorder with the recent stressor, but I am not sure exactly how to best overcome it except to face the fears and go with the best of my ability. I am certain that I am not the only one who have struggled with such anxiety in their journey to becoming a self-sufficient, competent physician.
To those who have underwent such hardship, how did you surmount it? How did you overcome self-doubt? What are practical ways to improve through such difficulty? I don't want this to ever be a set-back, but a boost to my learning curve which may have been lagging slightly behind.
I really want to get better..
Thanks SDN.