Suicidal over grades

[jlo1122]

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Hey guys,

I was doing well in undergrad college and most likely I was supposed to graduate with a 3.8 or higher. However, in my junior year, I got really sick and I lost a lot of weight. In my junior year, I got a C in 1 math class and a C in 4 science classes and a D in 1 science class. Overall, I messed up in 6 classes that are part of my BCPM GPA. I'm now in my senior year and I am currently taking 5 science classes. I got treatment for my health issues and I am doing well in all of my classes but it doesn’t matter anymore.

I made a huge mistake and I let my health issues negatively affect my school work. I messed up my GPA horribly and I feel very suicidal. My eyes are watery all the time, I can’t stop crying. I don’t feel well and I don’t want to live anymore. I’m such a failure and I have never told anyone about my situation because I don’t have anyone to talk to. I am surrounded by judgmental friends and family members. I currently have a B letter GPA. I am extremely embarrassed and depressed and I have ruined all of my dreams. I know that realistically there is no possible way that I will ever get into medical school. I don’t have any reason to live anymore except I feel that I have to take care of my brother. I need to talk to someone and any advice is greatly appreciated. I also know there is nothing that can be done to improve my GPA. Does anyone have any advice on how I can avoid suicidal thoughts? Should I waste money to seek professional help? Thank you so much.

 

[doglover919]

Yes! Please go talk to a professional! Call 800 273 8255. That's the number for the National Prevention Hotline. Please call right away. You are so much more than your grades!

 

[FistLength]

Hey guys,

I was doing well in undergrad college and most likely I was supposed to graduate with a 3.8 or higher. However, in my junior year, I got really sick and I lost a lot of weight. In my junior year, I got a C in 1 math class and a C in 4 science classes and a D in 1 science class. Overall, I messed up in 6 classes that are part of my BCPM GPA. I'm now in my senior year and I am currently taking 5 science classes. I got treatment for my health issues and I am doing well in all of my classes but it doesn’t matter anymore.

I made a huge mistake and I let my health issues negatively affect my school work. I messed up my GPA horribly and I feel very suicidal. My eyes are watery all the time, I can’t stop crying. I don’t feel well and I don’t want to live anymore. I’m such a failure and I have never told anyone about my situation because I don’t have anyone to talk to. I am surrounded by judgmental friends and family members. I currently have a B letter GPA. I am extremely embarrassed and depressed and I have ruined all of my dreams. I know that realistically there is no possible way that I will ever get into medical school. I don’t have any reason to live anymore except I feel that I have to take care of my brother. I need to talk to someone and any advice is greatly appreciated. I also know there is nothing that can be done to improve my GPA. Does anyone have any advice on how I can avoid suicidal thoughts? Should I waste money to seek professional help? Thank you so much.

1. You must seek professional help as soon as possible.
2. My grades were not far off from yours, I even failed a class. When you say "it doesn't even matter anymore" is incorrect. Few years later I am a third year medical student, scored very well on my boards. No such thing as "doesn't matter anymore". I strongly suggest dumping judgmental "friends". People who obsess over your gpa and school grades are toxic. B letter GPA is not bad at all. If you are amenable to going the DO route or doing a masters program, you will be fine, might just take an extra year or 2. It is understandable to be upset, but please do not lose hope in your success. People have been in similar situations in the past and made it to their goals.

 

[Ismet]

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