Hi all
I had a question regarding switching from one fellowship to the other.
I have just started a fellowship in Heme/Onc and am in my 4th month now
I do enjoy the faculty and my co fellows but the subject matter has been very hard for me to handle in terms of the emotional aspect of seeing sick and dying patients daily. I thought I would get used to it and maybe be able to handle it but it hasnt seem to change. I applied to the fellowship because I was interested in the medicine behind it, research etc but I cant get over the clinical aspect of seeing such sick patients. In a 3 day period I saw multiple patients of mine die and i just dont see myself doing this for the rest of my life anymore.
I do enjoy clinical work so I cant see myself working in research in this particular field. I am willing to finish the year so the program doesnt feel the stress of not having a fellow.
My question is will it be difficult to switch by reapplying to another fellowship?
Do programs dislike a fellow who has left a program in the past?
Help would be appreciated. I havent discussed the matter at my program as the subject is sensitive and I havent made it public yet before I hear my options.
I had a question regarding switching from one fellowship to the other.
I have just started a fellowship in Heme/Onc and am in my 4th month now
I do enjoy the faculty and my co fellows but the subject matter has been very hard for me to handle in terms of the emotional aspect of seeing sick and dying patients daily. I thought I would get used to it and maybe be able to handle it but it hasnt seem to change. I applied to the fellowship because I was interested in the medicine behind it, research etc but I cant get over the clinical aspect of seeing such sick patients. In a 3 day period I saw multiple patients of mine die and i just dont see myself doing this for the rest of my life anymore.
I do enjoy clinical work so I cant see myself working in research in this particular field. I am willing to finish the year so the program doesnt feel the stress of not having a fellow.
My question is will it be difficult to switch by reapplying to another fellowship?
Do programs dislike a fellow who has left a program in the past?
Help would be appreciated. I havent discussed the matter at my program as the subject is sensitive and I havent made it public yet before I hear my options.