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Obstacles is a nice word for excuses.
Being a high school drop out, getting hooked on drugs (everything hard), being homeless and living on the street and building myself up.
I now am a completely stable, 4.0 student, have a stable job as a vet tech, home, car, my 2 dogs, an amazing boyfriend.
My issues probably started when I was a kid but have escalated way beyond that. Before age 12 I was diagnosed with JRA, a mitral valve defect, heart murmur, iron deficiency anemia, and numerous other vitamin and mineral deficiencies most strangely of which was a sodium deficiency.
Since then I've had constant digestive, neurological, and pain related issues ranging from migraines to shaking to sudden onset numbness and paralysis in my extremities.
Everything levels out for a whole then gets worse near the end of high school. I go to a dozen different doctors and they decide to try and elimination diet. Remove dairy and red meat from my diet, better for a while. Worse again, remove eggs. Better, then finally worse and remove all other meat.
Have now also had an endoscopy an colonoscopy done, been checked for celiac, Lyme, lupus, MS, and everything else under the sun and still no answers.
I'm now trying to combat already terrible vitamin deficiencies on a completely vegan diet, and barely keeping at the bottom of the normal range. And I'm still having symptoms.
So I'm faced with this dilemma about whether or not I'm really healthy enough to commit to vet school right now, because if it gets worse I don't know what else they'll be able to try.
Just frustrating to have done all these tests and still be no closer to an answer. Going to an allergist next to be screened for literally everything as opposed to the limited panel I had before.
I recently found this quote:
"Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure that you are not, in fact, just surrounded by *******s." 👍
I know first-hand that anxiety and depression are very real, but have also realized that (in my case) they probably originate from 20+ years of verbal and emotional abuse from my parents. Sometimes you just have to admit your family is cray cray and you should not see them unless it's a holiday! ha
And surround yourself with people you feel you can vent to that are uplifting !!
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I haven't had to make any excuses because I've crushed all my obstacles.The same can be said for many others in this forum.
Your negativity is not welcome here.
So far my struggles have been
Being a high school drop out, getting hooked on drugs (everything hard), being homeless and living on the street and building myself up.
I now am a completely stable, 4.0 student, have a stable job as a vet tech, home, car, my 2 dogs, an amazing boyfriend.
And turning 24. I did all that in a span of 17- now... Got off drugs around 21 for good. I may have been 22.
I could go on in detail, but you get the idea.
My current obstacles would be me being self-defeating...
I don't really have a lot of family support and sometimes I can get really down on myself and feel like I'll never get to vet school for one reason or another (finances, time, feel like I wouldn't do well etc).
Luckily I have a support system, it's just not my immediate family which honestly, leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I feel like I have to do everything on my own and to depend on anyone would be a mistake because I can't depend on anyone... though my boyfriend is always there for me and his family is there for me more than my own. Thank god for them coming into my life! Lol.
I am trying to figure out what's at the bottom of all of my struggles right now, and aside from my social anxiety, I'm pretty sure I have ADHD. I fit the bill pretty perfectly, in fact. Has anyone else had an experience finding something like this out well into college? My freshman and sophomore grades seriously suffered. (GPA is rapidly improving now...)
go see a therapist if it is a concern.
I am trying to figure out what's at the bottom of all of my struggles right now, and aside from my social anxiety, I'm pretty sure I have ADHD. I fit the bill pretty perfectly, in fact. Has anyone else had an experience finding something like this out well into college? My freshman and sophomore grades seriously suffered. (GPA is rapidly improving now...)
I was born with numerous anxiety disorders. Once my epilepsy developed (particularly because it's localized in the temporal lobe), that anxiety became exacerbated. Moreover, my medication caused me cognitive impairment, starting my senior year of high school. My dosage finally decreased recently, and my grades are noticeably higher. Unfortunately, because I applied this year, vet schools weren't able to see the extent the medicine affected my cognition, and as a result, I got rejected from a few schools, due to my numbers. Still, some gave me a chance (with interviews), though I'm still in the waiting game (and I'm not going to lie - the waiting, along with my anxiety, really sucks, but you can learn how to cope).
How did I cope during most of college? I didn't, and as a result, I developed disordered eating. It's one of the worst things I ever did to myself, and it could be prevented. How did I cope more recently, during the application process? By going to therapy once a week. I've learned so much about myself during this journey, which made it much easier. When my medicine can't calm me down (like during panic attacks), I take a walk and listen to my iPod, and I try doing guided meditations on Youtube.
Anxiety and it's effects can be crippling. You can't avoid it, but you can adapt. Some schools weren't able to give my a chance, and I'm not surprised by that, but others were. If this is what you really want to do, just keep dedicating yourself. Life becomes much easier when you realize that you have a passion, because then you have a purpose; you can live towards something. If you're in this for the animals, just remember: they don't care what school you go to, how many tries it took, and how twisted your journey was; they only want to be taken care of.
The best piece of advice I can give you during this journey (which I learned from Demi Lovato actually) is that the energy you put into the universe will be returned to you. You can let you're anxiety overwhelm you and emit negative energy to your world, and in turn, your life will be a mess; but it doesn't have to be. You can emit positive energy and remember that not ever obstacle is the worst thing in the world. Having severe anxiety makes this all the more hard, but it's not impossible. It's up to you.
Best of luck! 🙂