That stinks that you are feeling this way. I'll be sending positive thoughts your way, if it makes any difference. I wish these ridiculous exams did not get us all so worked up the way they do. Many of us are smart and compassionate and may or may not be great standardized test takers and the fact that one single exam causes such anxiety and sleeplessness is just wrong. Getting into medical school is not easy, of course, so anxiety and worry are part of the territory, but the power of the MCAT to take our minds hostage is craziness. There is so much more to any one applicant than a single test score. A high score does not necessarily equal an excellent doctor to be and a less than "insert magic score here" does not necessarily mean someone is sub-par or will not make an excellent physician. It may "predict" future USMLE, but does a good USMLE make a good doctor? I argue there is much more to being a good physician than that as well. There are some who can excel in everything and that's great, but most of us are human and have good days and bad, strengths and weaknesses and that is just the way it is. Striving for your best is always right thing to do, but letting certain aspects of this pre-med journey take over one's life does not make for a balanced life. It's hard to find balance as it is, but the pre-med path can really take over everything and it's important all of us try our best to take a step back, too, and just be proud of where we are. Okay, off my soap box. Anyway, I have by no means mastered a balanced life nor have I avoided excessive MCAT/pre-med stress, but I'm trying.