Utterly Depressed...I failed at life

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[EpiIV]

Welcome to the "I ****ed up hours/weeks/months worth of work" club. It only takes one mispipetting job or one deleted hard drive! Working in research will do that to you over and over again and it stings each time, especially when you're panicking over a grant or thesis. When I get down about my life being consumed by research, I like to plan out everything I could do after I graduate. It makes me fight to get my thesis done early.

Taking a few years more than your peer group is going to be one of the best opportunities you have to grow. For starters, you've got the failure part down. I'm serious. Learning how to deal with failure is absolutely necessary to succeed...anywhere. Secondly, you were right to leave your options open to go to different schools. Based on your experiences, you've probably gotten yourself set up to go to a much higher program/more likely to get scholarships when you apply. Finally, have you seen the dating pool in the 7 years? You did, and they're not worth it to you.

So what do you do in your year off if you don't get the scholarship? You go ****ing adventuring man! Get out of the lab and backpack, white water kayak, couch surf, fix up an old car, join a band, or start a charity. You don't need some prepackaged experience to lead a fulfilling life. You don't need to graduate from med school a year younger to gain recognition. Best way to make that girl jealous along with any other traditional med student? Take a year off and do something impossibly exciting in the process. Hell, you can even write about it in your diversity essay.

 

[surftheiop]

I have never felt worse before in my life. I am sorry to come on here and rant about it, but honestly I don't know where else to turn and no one in my family would really understand.

I just left lab about an hour ago on the medical campus after completely screwing up my experiment which took a whole weeks time in preperation. As I was leaving, I guess the maintaince people were cleaning the floor and I slipped and hit my head. At this point I felt like crying, and I said to myself that my day could not get any worse. But, it did and it got a whole lot worse. As I was walking out, I saw my old gf walking with (I hate to say it) another guy. They looked like they were coming from class. He had his hand around her shoulder and they were laughing together. As I passed by them I smiled and she looked at me then looked back at him and kept giggling.

My gf had applied to the seven year program at our university, but I didn't. At the time I didn't want to go to med school at the same school I did my undergrad. Instead, I worked my butt and got several national recognitions (one of them was alongside a frequent poster here from Texas). I'm going to be a senior, and I'm not applying this year either because of my stupid aspirations to be a Rhodes Scholar.

Anyways, it just hit me that I am a failure. My old gf is now out of my league, and looks down on me. All my friends that applied to the 7 year program are probably greatly enjoying themselves and I bet you anything they think they are above me. Its a very difficult thing to grasp for someone that used to have such high self esteem. I wish I had applied to the 7 year program last summer, and I really wish I would have taken the MCAT and at least tried this summer instead of ruining my life. This next year is going to be a year of agony....and if I fail to get the scholarships to study abroad the following year I fear that I may go into a very deep depression. I have put myself in a horrible situation.

I am sure there will be worse days ahead, but as of right now I just want to pass out my head hurts so bad. I am sorry for the rant.

Sorry to hear your having a rough time, things will get better. If you don't get the scholarships its not the end of the world, you will still have a great opportunity to become a physician (assuming that is what you want to do).

 

[Slowpoke]

or....he's completely right and you're just an oversensitive little bitch.

or.... you're krisykreme's multi account and just switching to bash. 🙄

 

[SJ17]

I might be reading your post wrong. But since you want to be a Rhodes scholar and your girlfriend is applying to 7 year programs. I think your a senior in high school. Which means your life hasn't even started.

lol I think you read wrong because at the end he said he shoulda taken the MCAT last summer or somethin..

Anyways keep your chin up better days are on the way for sure =]

 

[jj6vcb]

If someone this pathetic gets a Rhodes scholarship it will change my view of the award. Grow a pair.

 

[ammarsfound]

This video always makes me feel better in situations like this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0yetHqWODp0

 

[Slowpoke]

This video always makes me feel better in situations like this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0yetHqWODp0

wow this one is actually really good

here's mine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=woOu_4l3lio

 

[Dreaming big]

tl;dr

Life failed at me....

 

[Cleavername]

tl;dr

Life failed at me....

only in soviet Russia.

 

[ArcGurren]

I have never felt worse before in my life. I am sorry to come on here and rant about it, but honestly I don't know where else to turn and no one in my family would really understand.

I just left lab about an hour ago on the medical campus after completely screwing up my experiment which took a whole weeks time in preperation. As I was leaving, I guess the maintaince people were cleaning the floor and I slipped and hit my head. At this point I felt like crying, and I said to myself that my day could not get any worse. But, it did and it got a whole lot worse. As I was walking out, I saw my old gf walking with (I hate to say it) another guy. They looked like they were coming from class. He had his hand around her shoulder and they were laughing together. As I passed by them I smiled and she looked at me then looked back at him and kept giggling.

My gf had applied to the seven year program at our university, but I didn't. At the time I didn't want to go to med school at the same school I did my undergrad. Instead, I worked my butt and got several national recognitions (one of them was alongside a frequent poster here from Texas). I'm going to be a senior, and I'm not applying this year either because of my stupid aspirations to be a Rhodes Scholar.

Anyways, it just hit me that I am a failure. My old gf is now out of my league, and looks down on me. All my friends that applied to the 7 year program are probably greatly enjoying themselves and I bet you anything they think they are above me. Its a very difficult thing to grasp for someone that used to have such high self esteem. I wish I had applied to the 7 year program last summer, and I really wish I would have taken the MCAT and at least tried this summer instead of ruining my life. This next year is going to be a year of agony....and if I fail to get the scholarships to study abroad the following year I fear that I may go into a very deep depression. I have put myself in a horrible situation.

I am sure there will be worse days ahead, but as of right now I just want to pass out my head hurts so bad. I am sorry for the rant.

It sucks, but you're really not in an unusual situation. Relax, don't worry, make the best of the next year and apply again.

Also, wait for your gf to start medical school and she'll realize just what a train she's been hit by.

Other than that I'd get out of pity mode and get on with your life. Worse stuff happens.

 

[untouchable]

I have never felt worse before in my life. I am sorry to come on here and rant about it, but honestly I don't know where else to turn and no one in my family would really understand.

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Picture your old gf taking a big ****. a big poop!!! Picture her farting constantly. Uglify her like ****, and it should not matter after that. I don't know why anyone, especially you (medical field or whatever your doing) would give a **** about anyone else!!!!!Thats lame and weak!!!

 

[Slowpoke]

Picture your old gf taking a big ****. a big poop!!! Picture her farting constantly. Uglify her like ****, and it should not matter after that. I don't know why anyone, especially you (medical field or whatever your doing) would give a **** about anyone else!!!!!Thats lame and weak!!!

what if op has a fetish for poop?

 

[kaylak05]

The only way you are a failure is if you worry about what others think of you. 10 years from now you won't even remember this girl existed. I'm sure the only reason you're so upset is because it was just the icing on top of a perfectly horrible day. Don't sweat the fact that you're pushed a year back because who's to say what's considered "late" anyway? So many college students enter not even knowing what they want to go to school for and by the time they decide on Pre-med don't you think they're "behind" as well? The good thing is no one is going to look down on you for taking an extra year to apply and take your MCATS. It's actually fairly common for people to wait a year in order to build up their EC's and what not. Chin up, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and that bump on your head clearly did not kill you. 😛 You shouldn't be upset that you chose to do what YOU wanted to do rather than what everyone else was doing. It's always nicer to do what makes you happy rather than do what you think you should do. It's not the end of the world. It'll be alright.

 

[kaylak05]

If someone this pathetic gets a Rhodes scholarship it will change my view of the award. Grow a pair.

Honestly, are you that cruel? Yeah, no one likes to hear someone complain but I highly doubt you've gone through life without ever feeling the way he does. I can't imagine what your bedside manner is like.

 

[jj6vcb]

So you think we should encourage this kind of woe-is-me defeatist attitude? Feeling sorry for oneself has never gotten anyone anywhere in either medicine or in the professional world, and to me, cruelty is telling someone in OP's situation that everything is going to be ok and enabling that type of attitude. Sometimes people just need a kick in the ass rather than coddling

 

[jj6vcb]

Honestly, are you that cruel? Yeah, no one likes to hear someone complain but I highly doubt you've gone through life without ever feeling the way he does. I can't imagine what your bedside manner is like.

And please, nothing OP mentioned is anything extraordinarily bad... like people in this thread have mentioned, everyone goes through crap like that on a regular basis. People who have real problems should be as devastated as this person says he is

 

[kaylak05]

I agree but sometimes people have medical issues like.. oh ..I don't know.. DEPRESSION and "kicking them in the ass" isn't going to help that. Sometimes people need to know that although they feel completely alone, they are not. Didn't mean to start an argument, I'm just sympathetic to others and I'm going into medicine to help people whether they deserve it or not.

 

[kaylak05]

And please, nothing OP mentioned is anything extraordinarily bad... like people in this thread have mentioned, everyone goes through crap like that on a regular basis. People who have real problems should be as devastated as this person says he is

Yeah, that may be true but for some people this is as bad as their life has gotten thus far. Maybe he is fortunate that this is the worst day he's ever had but at the same time, if its THE WORST he's gone through then he probably feels pretty hopeless right now. I just don't think people post on here to be ridiculed and picked on when they're obviously already feeling down.

 

[gatorade848]

So you think we should encourage this kind of woe-is-me defeatist attitude? Feeling sorry for oneself has never gotten anyone anywhere in either medicine or in the professional world, and to me, cruelty is telling someone in OP's situation that everything is going to be ok and enabling that type of attitude. Sometimes people just need a kick in the ass rather than coddling

if this guy is actually depressed... a "kick in the ass" may not be the best option. long story short I had been really depressed and when one of my friend decided to just tell me to "snap out of it I am sick tired of it" that just made everything ten times worse... she had to apologize but damage was done. constructive advice like some I read so far really is the best

to OP, trust me, someone has it worse than you do; I am a living example. I may tell my story if I decide to do so after I take aamc 10 tomorrow night lol

 

[jj6vcb]

Yeah, that may be true but for some people this is as bad as their life has gotten thus far. Maybe he is fortunate that this is the worst day he's ever had but at the same time, if its THE WORST he's gone through then he probably feels pretty hopeless right now. I just don't think people post on here to be ridiculed and picked on when they're obviously already feeling down.

Well maybe its time to realize garnering sympathy from others isn't the best way to deal with normal grief. Yeah, what I said earlier was rough but I wasn't trying to damage the kid

 

[ArcGurren]

Well maybe its time to realize garnering sympathy from others isn't the best way to deal with normal grief. Yeah, what I said earlier was rough but I wasn't trying to damage the kid

I honestly doubt the "kid" is affected that much by what some random premed shmuck wrote about him on a forum.

If he really is depressed then giving him an ass kicking is not going to help him. Also some people even in normal grief do not respond well to that either. Compassion should always be the first resort.

 

[Tin Man]

Anyone else notice that the original post was dated Friday the 13th? 😉

 

[jj6vcb]

I honestly doubt the "kid" is affected that much by what some random premed shmuck wrote about him on a forum.

If he really is depressed then giving him an ass kicking is not going to help him. Also some people even in normal grief do not respond well to that either. Compassion should always be the first resort.

Read the thread and original post, pal. This whole thing is an attention grab.

 

[ILikeDrugs]

Aren't you that guy who ripped on a father who was starting medical school and was stressed that school would be starting when his second child was due in this thread?

I don't understand why you continually rip on others who are hurting. You sound like a miserable pissant who doesn't have anything better to do with his time than disparage others and their reasons for being down. Seriously, get over yourself.

Dayyyyyyuuummmm. **** just got real. Fur realz. She got ripped apart in that thread too. Guess she didn't learn her lesson.