Hey everyone, this past week ive been feeling really down. The amount of stress, depression and anxiety are blocking my mental focus for finals (which i have tomorrow through thursday). I hope you guys can bare with me and read about my situation. Hopefully i can find someone who was in a similar situation as me or any sort of advice would be greatly appreciated.
Im 22 and have spent an exceeded amount of necessary years at my jc (occ, this will be my 4th year, with 82 units completed). I applied to UCI this year, got waitlisted and now, after calling, my chances for acceptance aren't too great. Im the first college student in my fam so going into jc after high school i wasnt too sure of what i needed to do. I picked bio as a major, which i dont regret, but nonetheless pretty clueless. Come sophmore and junior year i hit the wall with my studies due to the bankruptcy of my father and didnt do well. I didnt flunk any of my classes but i ended up getting C's in gchem1&2,bio1, and ochem1.
Come today, im having the ****tiest feelings. I wish i could go back in time and start jc with what i know now, which i learned the hard way. I wish i was more academically and mentally mature, i wish i had placed my dschool goal as top priority.
During the period i was applying to UCI i also made a back up plan in case i dont get accepted (1st HUGE mistake was only applying to UCI thinking i had a decent chance and not adding CSUF as a back up school because i thought the name of the institution you graduate from really matters). I plan on taking some bio classes at UCI this summer (part of their extension program for all college students) and studying for the DAT during my semester away from school while taking 9-12 units to boost my gpa. I currently have a 3.0, with about 5 C's and a few W's.
On top of all this whats brought the most stress is that i was planning on getting engaged by the end of this year. Well...after telling my sig other about my situation things didnt go too well. Shes a couple years older than me and both of us coming from traditional iranian households where marrying a women older than you is frowned upon, it really hurt our cause. Not to mention that with her being older time is a huge factor into all of this. Also in addition to this i have my parents on the side line frowning upon me with lost hope.
Now, i am just sitting around with so much on my head. Time flew right past me and i feel like i have loser tatted on my head, just a failure in general. I think what bothers me the most is that i might lose the women i l love because of an academic struggle i went through.
After that period of time i did have an upward trend, took around 17 units and gots A's and B's but im still borderline 3.0.
Im going to try to apply again for winter at UCI and then for CSUF for fall 2011 and practically max my units per semester in order to catch up. I feel like i have all the potential and capabilities to succeed greatly but mentally and emotionally im stuck. I worry about, for instance starting, at CSUF but something goes wrong and im not able to raise my gpa, just a bunch of negative thoughts out of fear for my future.
If you've made it this far i thank you. Overall what can i do to make up for time lost (in regards to being a stronger applicant). I do have some volunteer hours, a few EC's, and a few hours of shadowing (which i plan on increasing during fall semester). Also, as a side question, how do you guys discipline yourselves, in your studying habits, when taking great amount of units? Anybody else on here from CSUF?
Anyways, i have a lot of questions i shouldve asked years ago but come this summer i want to start fresh with the classes at UCI, devout my study time towards the dat and hopefully have a great outcome that i can share with people who are on the same boat as me.
Good luck to all who have finals
Im 22 and have spent an exceeded amount of necessary years at my jc (occ, this will be my 4th year, with 82 units completed). I applied to UCI this year, got waitlisted and now, after calling, my chances for acceptance aren't too great. Im the first college student in my fam so going into jc after high school i wasnt too sure of what i needed to do. I picked bio as a major, which i dont regret, but nonetheless pretty clueless. Come sophmore and junior year i hit the wall with my studies due to the bankruptcy of my father and didnt do well. I didnt flunk any of my classes but i ended up getting C's in gchem1&2,bio1, and ochem1.
Come today, im having the ****tiest feelings. I wish i could go back in time and start jc with what i know now, which i learned the hard way. I wish i was more academically and mentally mature, i wish i had placed my dschool goal as top priority.
During the period i was applying to UCI i also made a back up plan in case i dont get accepted (1st HUGE mistake was only applying to UCI thinking i had a decent chance and not adding CSUF as a back up school because i thought the name of the institution you graduate from really matters). I plan on taking some bio classes at UCI this summer (part of their extension program for all college students) and studying for the DAT during my semester away from school while taking 9-12 units to boost my gpa. I currently have a 3.0, with about 5 C's and a few W's.
On top of all this whats brought the most stress is that i was planning on getting engaged by the end of this year. Well...after telling my sig other about my situation things didnt go too well. Shes a couple years older than me and both of us coming from traditional iranian households where marrying a women older than you is frowned upon, it really hurt our cause. Not to mention that with her being older time is a huge factor into all of this. Also in addition to this i have my parents on the side line frowning upon me with lost hope.
Now, i am just sitting around with so much on my head. Time flew right past me and i feel like i have loser tatted on my head, just a failure in general. I think what bothers me the most is that i might lose the women i l love because of an academic struggle i went through.
After that period of time i did have an upward trend, took around 17 units and gots A's and B's but im still borderline 3.0.
Im going to try to apply again for winter at UCI and then for CSUF for fall 2011 and practically max my units per semester in order to catch up. I feel like i have all the potential and capabilities to succeed greatly but mentally and emotionally im stuck. I worry about, for instance starting, at CSUF but something goes wrong and im not able to raise my gpa, just a bunch of negative thoughts out of fear for my future.
If you've made it this far i thank you. Overall what can i do to make up for time lost (in regards to being a stronger applicant). I do have some volunteer hours, a few EC's, and a few hours of shadowing (which i plan on increasing during fall semester). Also, as a side question, how do you guys discipline yourselves, in your studying habits, when taking great amount of units? Anybody else on here from CSUF?
Anyways, i have a lot of questions i shouldve asked years ago but come this summer i want to start fresh with the classes at UCI, devout my study time towards the dat and hopefully have a great outcome that i can share with people who are on the same boat as me.
Good luck to all who have finals
