In the last couple of weeks my luck has pretty much been non-existent. Although I'm currently sitting on a single acceptance from my state school, the rest of my results have been as follows:
1 R, 5 WL.
Feeling pretty crushed. I still have a shot (upcoming interview at another T20, although it's so late in the cycle I might as well chalk it up as a WL), but I feel pessimistic. I'm either a bad interviewer or there's some red flag on my written application, but it's hard to identify.
I completed a mock interview as part of the committee letter writing process and I've practiced with current T20 med students, and the only negative feedback was that I had a habit of fidgeting with my hands. I'm not Mr. Charisma - probably about average - but maybe I'm just not self-aware, and I perform worse on game day? Some supposedly have "real" waitlists as opposed to others which give it to everyone, so maybe I'm just mediocre rather than terrible?
5 years of research+2 publications+3 more during the cycle, and about 250 hours each of clinical/non-clinical volunteering, shadowing, other stuff. The main negatives I see are some early classroom struggles and low-side GPA and no major organizational leadership. But now it's got me wondering if there's a mediocre rec or some sort of other red flag. It's probably paranoia/anxiety, but if I was being mistakenly associated with an IA or fabricating an activity/award/hour amount, I would be notified, right?
This experience honestly has me reconsidering whether I should continue on the career path. I know the one acceptance I have is something to be happy about, and a huge number of matriculants only get one. I'm not "too good" for my potential classmates at the aforementioned state school, and don't think I'm better than them. It's just the fact that I've really had to sacrifice so much extra to build my app, which wouldn't have been necessary to end up at the same school. I know students at the state school, and they worked hard, but they weren't chasing those 99%ile scores, or pubs, or gap years, or hundreds of volunteer hours, and could enjoy balanced social/personal lives. After those early grade struggles the margin of error I could tolerate was basically zero, and my life since then has been joylessly cultivating my GPA and resume. I'm finishing out my second gap year at the moment and I've just been miserable for probably about the last 3-4 years, but I've been motivating myself with the idea that it'd be worth it in the end. It doesn't seem to be turning out that way though. I still love the day-to-day of the career itself, but I'm no longer sure if I'm cut out for it. If I'm going to have to put in above average effort for a mediocre outcome for the rest of my life (if I'm a bad interviewer that won't just go away), it just seems like a poor return on investment.
Is anyone else going through/has gone through something similar?
1 R, 5 WL.
Feeling pretty crushed. I still have a shot (upcoming interview at another T20, although it's so late in the cycle I might as well chalk it up as a WL), but I feel pessimistic. I'm either a bad interviewer or there's some red flag on my written application, but it's hard to identify.
I completed a mock interview as part of the committee letter writing process and I've practiced with current T20 med students, and the only negative feedback was that I had a habit of fidgeting with my hands. I'm not Mr. Charisma - probably about average - but maybe I'm just not self-aware, and I perform worse on game day? Some supposedly have "real" waitlists as opposed to others which give it to everyone, so maybe I'm just mediocre rather than terrible?
5 years of research+2 publications+3 more during the cycle, and about 250 hours each of clinical/non-clinical volunteering, shadowing, other stuff. The main negatives I see are some early classroom struggles and low-side GPA and no major organizational leadership. But now it's got me wondering if there's a mediocre rec or some sort of other red flag. It's probably paranoia/anxiety, but if I was being mistakenly associated with an IA or fabricating an activity/award/hour amount, I would be notified, right?
This experience honestly has me reconsidering whether I should continue on the career path. I know the one acceptance I have is something to be happy about, and a huge number of matriculants only get one. I'm not "too good" for my potential classmates at the aforementioned state school, and don't think I'm better than them. It's just the fact that I've really had to sacrifice so much extra to build my app, which wouldn't have been necessary to end up at the same school. I know students at the state school, and they worked hard, but they weren't chasing those 99%ile scores, or pubs, or gap years, or hundreds of volunteer hours, and could enjoy balanced social/personal lives. After those early grade struggles the margin of error I could tolerate was basically zero, and my life since then has been joylessly cultivating my GPA and resume. I'm finishing out my second gap year at the moment and I've just been miserable for probably about the last 3-4 years, but I've been motivating myself with the idea that it'd be worth it in the end. It doesn't seem to be turning out that way though. I still love the day-to-day of the career itself, but I'm no longer sure if I'm cut out for it. If I'm going to have to put in above average effort for a mediocre outcome for the rest of my life (if I'm a bad interviewer that won't just go away), it just seems like a poor return on investment.
Is anyone else going through/has gone through something similar?
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