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Hello everyone,
I'd like your take on my situation and advice on how to proceed from here. My troubles, as I see them, are:
1. I think I might be depressed. The trigger is a miscarriage I had weeks ago. The pregnancy was very much wanted and anticipated for years. I've had several weeks of sick leave due to complications. In spite of the time that has passed, I still feel miserable. I can't sleep at night, and I hardly eat. I still cry daily and I do not feel up to going back to my highly competitive work environment. My relationship with my husband is strained by all this grief, both his and mine.
2. As you could read in my previous thread, http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=800260&highlight=janedoedoctor, things were already not going swimmingly in my professional life. The atmosphere at work had improved a little since I wrote that post.
However, I had not yet told anyone that I was pregnant, because of the negative attitude towards women in general and pregnant women in particular. I was coming to a point where hiding my belly was becoming impossible, so I made an appointment with the PD to break the news to him. Unfortunately, I miscarried while rounding in the ICU, hours before that conversation was to take place. It created quite a scene. Everyone was very nice to me at that moment but I really don't know how they will react once I get back.
3. I have postponed working on several publications and research projects because of what happened. When i go back i'll have to catch up with everything. One big piece that I did manage to send in was rejected by the journal. I will probably get it published somewhere else but it's very demotivating and just adds to my gloomy mood.
So... would you guys take more time off if you were in my shoes, or do I need to go back and grit my teeth? I'm not sure I can manage that second option. I've always considered myself a very strong person who could keep het private and professional lives separated, but all this just might be too much.
I'd like your take on my situation and advice on how to proceed from here. My troubles, as I see them, are:
1. I think I might be depressed. The trigger is a miscarriage I had weeks ago. The pregnancy was very much wanted and anticipated for years. I've had several weeks of sick leave due to complications. In spite of the time that has passed, I still feel miserable. I can't sleep at night, and I hardly eat. I still cry daily and I do not feel up to going back to my highly competitive work environment. My relationship with my husband is strained by all this grief, both his and mine.
2. As you could read in my previous thread, http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=800260&highlight=janedoedoctor, things were already not going swimmingly in my professional life. The atmosphere at work had improved a little since I wrote that post.
However, I had not yet told anyone that I was pregnant, because of the negative attitude towards women in general and pregnant women in particular. I was coming to a point where hiding my belly was becoming impossible, so I made an appointment with the PD to break the news to him. Unfortunately, I miscarried while rounding in the ICU, hours before that conversation was to take place. It created quite a scene. Everyone was very nice to me at that moment but I really don't know how they will react once I get back.
3. I have postponed working on several publications and research projects because of what happened. When i go back i'll have to catch up with everything. One big piece that I did manage to send in was rejected by the journal. I will probably get it published somewhere else but it's very demotivating and just adds to my gloomy mood.
So... would you guys take more time off if you were in my shoes, or do I need to go back and grit my teeth? I'm not sure I can manage that second option. I've always considered myself a very strong person who could keep het private and professional lives separated, but all this just might be too much.