Feel free to put me on Ignore again. Like you said, you haven't spent much time on their in the past year. I have yet to see someone say to aim for a P. Yes P = MD but P does not = Residency.
I'm laughing bc medical school is different from undergrad in terms of volume, depth, etc. You're on a straight train to neuroticismville if you believe that you need a grade to motivate you, esp. when your class is full of people who want that same grade. It'll esp. be bad in MS-3 when your learning switches to independent learning and there isn't a grade on the horizon or a certain number of points to get.
Ugh. I am not explaining myself well. I can see what you're laughing at, and I get it, I really do. That's not the whole story, though, by any stretch.
It's more that while I am super interested in learning (always have been), and often go above and beyond on that front, I prefer a kick in the pants on the way out the door.
And hey, perhaps I am ascribing too much to grades...in the past 2yrs I have completely overhauled my time management (as in, having any at all), study skills (as in, studying at all) and yes, grades. Much of that motivation was my realization that I wanted better long-term retention and less cramming (partly after reading Allo and noticing a lot of 'binge purge' going on, esp with regards to Step 1). Much of it was becoming determined that my schedule would be 'I can get this done no matter what' rather than 'I can get this done if nothing major crops up in my life between now and finals'. And yes, some of that motivation was 'holy crap, I actually need the grades now'. So perhaps you're right, and I'm putting too much weight on that aspect of it - there have been a lot of changes in the past 2yrs, and while the grades were the most tangible bit, they were hardly the biggest ones.
So I see your point - grades should not be the main motivator. I don't think they really are, for me (I spent 8yrs convinced they were meaningless, so it's not hard to jump back to that), and I think I misrepresented myself there.
But part of me feels that, if I keep this up and do as well as I can, I want the credit for it. I want the grade. If I earn a C, I earn a C, and I pass, but if I earn an A, I damn well want to see it and have it count for something. And regardless of the grade aspect, I DO perform far, far better under pressure.