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I am 5.5 years out of EM residency. I went to residency at a well regarded academic center. There were 3 attendings over the age of 50 at that time.
1. A gentleman who was in his 70s, did 4-5 weekday 0700-1500 shifts a month to teach because he liked teaching. He was a highly successful businessman. He built a SDG and multiple side businesses before coming to academics. And he loved working with us residents. He was kind, compassionate and.... incredibly up to date on the latest and greatest in EM. He was what I wanted to be.
2. A lady in her 50s, bitter, mean, and always looking to crush the souls of subordinates. Of course she was in a leadership position.
3. A gentleman in his early 60s, weaning off leadership roles and drifting towards retirement. A legend. Great guy. Exuberant and frankly seemed to take joy from everything in life. Likely diagnosis of hyperthymia.
Everyone else working clinically was early 40s or younger. Yeah, I thought that was weird. But in my sweet naive mind, I thought everyone "retired" to an "easier" community job. Such a sweet summer child. Sure there are outliers. I have seen them in some of my community jobs. But the number of practicing EM physicians plummets at 50.
It is hard out there and getting harder. We are squeezed by all sides. IM, FP or even general surgery trained? Sure, take ACLS, ATLS and PALS and go work in the ER! No problem! NP, PA? Sure! Go work in the ER! EM trained? Well, there are a bunch of threads regarding what else you can do. It is really hard to see your colleagues that are not EM trained work in the dept with equal pay while you have no option to do IM clinic or do an IM fellowship. EM one year fellowships are available for FP to do EM, but no similar programs for EM to do FP or IM. It is disheartening. We are not valued. We are not only interchangeable with other EM board certified docs, but also with FP and IM and even Gen Surg Docs in the eyes of administrators and insurance companies. I didn't think this would bother me as I was told as a resident that it was only a matter of time when EM boarded docs would "push out" docs trained in other specialties. I have not seen this happen. Actually, I have seen shops that had been previously all been EM boarded open up to non-EM boarded docs. The mid-level crisis is a dead horse I won't go into in this post.
And I am a good doc. I was just given the "doctor of the month" award in our two hospital system. I have worked there 4 months. I have worked hard to try and save as much as I could so I would have a parachute for when either conditions deteriorate so much that I can't do this anymore or pay crashes so much that it isn't worth the stress and heartache. But I am scared. I hate that I am scared. I worked so hard to be an expert and to see the writing on the wall fills with me dread. I hate that I don't have faith that I can keep the current pay that I have now to be fully FI in 5 years. It breaks my heart.
I wish I could talk to med student me. I wish I could tell the younger version of myself that I wasn't special and I should pick something else if longevity was important to me.
Our leadership also needs to look into helping EM docs change pathways to helps us continue to practice medicine. Whether that be integrated pathways to shorten a new residency to change specialities or something I don't have the wisdom to imagine, but we need something.
1. A gentleman who was in his 70s, did 4-5 weekday 0700-1500 shifts a month to teach because he liked teaching. He was a highly successful businessman. He built a SDG and multiple side businesses before coming to academics. And he loved working with us residents. He was kind, compassionate and.... incredibly up to date on the latest and greatest in EM. He was what I wanted to be.
2. A lady in her 50s, bitter, mean, and always looking to crush the souls of subordinates. Of course she was in a leadership position.
3. A gentleman in his early 60s, weaning off leadership roles and drifting towards retirement. A legend. Great guy. Exuberant and frankly seemed to take joy from everything in life. Likely diagnosis of hyperthymia.
Everyone else working clinically was early 40s or younger. Yeah, I thought that was weird. But in my sweet naive mind, I thought everyone "retired" to an "easier" community job. Such a sweet summer child. Sure there are outliers. I have seen them in some of my community jobs. But the number of practicing EM physicians plummets at 50.
It is hard out there and getting harder. We are squeezed by all sides. IM, FP or even general surgery trained? Sure, take ACLS, ATLS and PALS and go work in the ER! No problem! NP, PA? Sure! Go work in the ER! EM trained? Well, there are a bunch of threads regarding what else you can do. It is really hard to see your colleagues that are not EM trained work in the dept with equal pay while you have no option to do IM clinic or do an IM fellowship. EM one year fellowships are available for FP to do EM, but no similar programs for EM to do FP or IM. It is disheartening. We are not valued. We are not only interchangeable with other EM board certified docs, but also with FP and IM and even Gen Surg Docs in the eyes of administrators and insurance companies. I didn't think this would bother me as I was told as a resident that it was only a matter of time when EM boarded docs would "push out" docs trained in other specialties. I have not seen this happen. Actually, I have seen shops that had been previously all been EM boarded open up to non-EM boarded docs. The mid-level crisis is a dead horse I won't go into in this post.
And I am a good doc. I was just given the "doctor of the month" award in our two hospital system. I have worked there 4 months. I have worked hard to try and save as much as I could so I would have a parachute for when either conditions deteriorate so much that I can't do this anymore or pay crashes so much that it isn't worth the stress and heartache. But I am scared. I hate that I am scared. I worked so hard to be an expert and to see the writing on the wall fills with me dread. I hate that I don't have faith that I can keep the current pay that I have now to be fully FI in 5 years. It breaks my heart.
I wish I could talk to med student me. I wish I could tell the younger version of myself that I wasn't special and I should pick something else if longevity was important to me.
Our leadership also needs to look into helping EM docs change pathways to helps us continue to practice medicine. Whether that be integrated pathways to shorten a new residency to change specialities or something I don't have the wisdom to imagine, but we need something.