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Duck, after reading your story, if I were you I'd lawyer up. I cannot imagine how they can justify allowing others to rank APPIC only sites, but not you. I would have been livid when they told me that. You didn't go to school for this long to quit because of this BS.
Duck - did they offer a rationale why? I'm just curious, since that seems very odd. Many programs allow you to request "exemptions" to a policy of APA-only, but I've never heard of a situation like yours where it sounds like the standard is to allow APPIC and you are the exception.
Here's the story: the standard at my program is APA and people can request "exemptions" to rank APPIC internships on a site by site and student by student basis. For the past decade or so (where the data is publicly available), students have been allowed to do APPIC internships every year. Last year, in Phase II, I requested an exemption for a site and the faculty denied my request (this was shocking and unexpected for me). The reasoning was (this is almost a quote) that the faculty felt my training needs and credentials would best be met by an APA accredited internship. [edited to take out some infuriating details] I was absolutely livid. Over the summer, I found out that, not only had the faculty denied my request, they had actually let other students rank APPIC sites, as those students matched to APPIC sites. I was the only student who did not match last year. More recently, I discovered that, not only had the faculty denied my petition, not only had other students been allowed to rank APPIC member sites last year, not only was I the only student who didn't match somewhere eventually, the faculty had actually allowed another student to rank and match to the same site that I had requested an exemption for. That student requested the exemption either at the same time that I did or even after I did. That student's request was granted.
I have had no disciplinary action taken against me, I have no ethics complaints from anyone, I have a >3.9 GPA, and my request to apply for internship had been granted by the faculty once at that point and has now been granted twice. Supervisors' reviews of me were not glowing (I think I'm difficult to supervise) but there were no problems or concerns raised and I got three great letters of recommendation (well, 2 great and one probably great). But the faculty just didn't/don't like me.
I might not have matched to that APPIC internship had I been allowed to rank it but my chances were pretty good. The faculty at my program irrationally took my best chance of finishing my degree (um, and bettering my credentials by doing so).
It doesn't make sense.
I don't think I'll sue because the most I could probably recover would be internship application fees (maybe $1000 for 2 years) and tuition (<$5000) for the past year (or possibly the year that they denied my petition?). I would much prefer to tell my story and dissuade students from attending the program. If I withdraw, I'll share the name of my program here. If I match (still not sure if I want to anymore), I'll probably wait until I get my degree.
One thing that surprised me, though it shouldn't have in hindsight because all of this went on behind closed doors, is that people who hear my story and are from my program don't recognize that it's their program. So I would encourage anyone reading this to think about the possibility that your program could treat its students like I have been treated. Because, for at least some of you, it has certainly done so.
Are there statistics posted re: the number of interviews as compared to match rate for this past phase?
The APPIC survey of applicants, even though the data is being collected now, doesn't come out - or didn't last year - until the end of May, so I don't think this information is available yet.
Sorry, but I don't understand how this relates to Cara's question/comment. I don't think students from FSPS are getting many APA internships and are not competing with students from funded APA programs (I haven't seen the data, this is my assumption). I'm from an APA uni-PsyD and many of our students do not get APA internships.
I think some people don't apply to enough programs for internship and therefore may not match for this reason, despite being a great candidate.
I don't know about funded APA programs but, as I posted earlier today, the number of students from APA programs who didn't match last year is roughly 4 times the number of students from non-APA programs who even participated in the match.
Also, stats showed for a while that 15 was the "magic number" of sites to apply to to have the highest chance of matching. There were two magic numbers, or ranges, last year, I believe:
12. Number of applications submitted:
1 to 5 applications Match rate = 62% n = 143
6 to 10 applications Match rate = 72% n = 258
11 to 15 applications Match rate = 83% n = 946
16 to 20 applications Match rate = 81% n = 912
21 to 25 applications Match rate = 84% n = 321
26 or more applications Match rate = 74% n = 132
My point is that more applications does not ensure you will have a better chance of matching, just as focusing a handful of applications on truly "perfect fit" sites does not ensure you will have a better chance of matching. This numbers game is a crapshoot.
I could easily see this becoming a trickle-down effect, of sorts.
It's more like a shotgun blast or a darts game where some hit and some don't. You aim at the target and only some will hit/stick exactly where you want them to. You get enough darts on the board and no more will stick, even if they're really pointy and well-balanced or whatever makes a good dart.
In the end I matched to a APA accredited site that will prepare me well to work in the setting I want to work in, but I have honestly felt really crappy these last few days.
I also matched to a site that was ranked toward the bottom of my list (9 out of 10). I am feeling much more positive about it now than on match day, and ultimately feel lucky to have matched at all.
So the good thing for people who did match but not to their top site is - even if this isn't how you feel now and that's totally fine - that studies suggest that you'll end up liking the situation/match just as much as you would have liked your top choice anyway. Reasons for this:
1 - you chose to rank it, so you liked it and this was one of many acceptable outcomes for you, just remember/imagine/think/believe that you had power over this outcome.
2 - people return to baseline happiness/satisfaction/whatever surprisingly quickly after both really bad and really good events, so you'll be back to normal soon enough.
There are many more research-based reasons that I'm confident that you'll feel better about matching wherever you did but I learned about them in undergrad psych classes so I can't remember the details.