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Thanks Lissarae and if Browns hired people full time I would be there in a heartbeat, but as long as the manager is there I get a lifetime discount.
Thanks Lissarae and if Browns hired people full time I would be there in a heartbeat, but as long as the manager is there I get a lifetime discount.
Thanks Lissarae and if Browns hired people full time I would be there in a heartbeat, but as long as the manager is there I get a lifetime discount.
I just feel like crap. Grad school has beaten any confidence I had in myself out of me, and just when my vet school acceptance(s) started to make me feel better, I'm reminded of how little I've accomplished despite all my efforts, and the efforts/time/$$ of others. I feel like a failure who has managed to ruin my advisors' desires to have future students.
Ugg I hate that, too. Almost nothing worse than knowing an animal is going to go home and have the last few hours/days of their life in misery.I hate it when owners take a pet home to die. Probable FIP kitty came in today for not eating/weight loss. A little stress made her tachypneic and she started turning blue. I went to talk to them while I had her on oxygen especially when the rads turned up pleural effusion. they wanted to take her home and see how she'd be.
So, I'm currently in a PhD program but will be leaving to go to vet school. I'm trying to get a Master's, so my advisors and I were talking about writing a thesis and it was just an incredibly depressing conversation. The truth is- I'm not a good researcher. No matter how smart I might be or how much time I spend in the lab, I'm just not good at benchwork. I repeat the same protocols as my labmates and they don't work; I use the same cell lines and they don't grow/express protein/etc. as they should; I do the same experiment on two nearly-identical groups of mice and get conflicting results. And I have no idea why; I'm just not suited for this type of science. Anyway, my advisors and I realized that I could write a thesis but it would be complete crap, b/c my data doesn't = a nice story to tell. There's *a lot* of it, but I can't make solid conclusions from it. I started my program w/out a lot of bench experience, and I struggled on my own to do experiments, b/c my labmates are super helpful but only have so much time to guide me. My advisors said in the future they'd reconsider taking on a grad student when they know they won't have much time to give them individual instruction.
I just feel like crap. Grad school has beaten any confidence I had in myself out of me, and just when my vet school acceptance(s) started to make me feel better, I'm reminded of how little I've accomplished despite all my efforts, and the efforts/time/$$ of others. I feel like a failure who has managed to ruin my advisors' desires to have future students.
And that's a rant?
I was playing really well today in my tournament and then a big ass storm decides to come through Tampa. Of course.
I was doing so well and I don't need to deal with the anxiety that comes from having your ex call your phone so often in a day it almost renders it unusable for everything you actually need it for...
yup. it waited for my day off.
Seems like you could use a change of phone number...
The issue is how much it's attached to. If he starts another round of obsessively calling (so far it was only this morning), I'll see about changing it. I think there's only one or two outstanding calls, regarding volunteer/job opportunities, that will require me to keep the same number through this next week. But if he starts it up again, I might have to disconnect it. I'd simply think about paying to have his number blocked but he uses a SIM card that allows him to contact me from a different American number each time he calls/texts (though this time, he used his Irish number) so I think I'm going to have to go through the hassle of getting my number changed in the end. I'm just hoping his next step isn't to think it's worth it to show up on my doorstep...
Wait, he's Irish? Does he live in California though? Hmm... just from hearing your side of the story, it doesn't sound good. He might be hurt, but he needs to move on too.
^ Definitely change your number. If he shows up at your door, call the police. Seriously. Tell him through the closed, locked door that you don't want to see him and you want him to leave. If he doesn't, call the police. It may seem extreme, but he is harassing you and has a history of abusive behavior, and that is not okay.
My rant:
I allowed my bf to talk me into coming along to the weekly roleplay game he runs with his friends. I've been sitting here for FIVE HOURS now and I am so unbelievably BORED. And they're still not done yet. I wish I'd at least brought my laptop so I could be working on job applications with this time. These are five hours of my life that I'm never going to get back . . .
Apparently I'm not nerdy enough for this crap.
You should make a character and play with him! I think it's sweet he wanted to include you
I appreciated being included, especially since he and his friends have been doing this two nights a week since before I met him over a year ago and this is the first time I've been invited to a game. But it's definitely not my cup of tea.
^ Definitely change your number. If he shows up at your door, call the police. Seriously. Tell him through the closed, locked door that you don't want to see him and you want him to leave. If he doesn't, call the police. It may seem extreme, but he is harassing you and has a history of abusive behavior, and that is not okay.
Thank you. I definitely have been keeping my phone and pepper spray with me. I'm that paranoid. The only reason I'm so paranoid is because even though his ticket wasn't booked, we'd been planning for him to come out this week before I broke up with him. I want to believe he's not stupid enough to spend money he doesn't have (seriously, I paid for everything in our relationship), but his actions have shown that he's far from rational. Once I hear back from the practice manager I called about any potential opportunities with their clinic, I'll plan on changing my number.
I allowed my bf to talk me into coming along to the weekly roleplay game he runs with his friends. I've been sitting here for FIVE HOURS now and I am so unbelievably BORED. And they're still not done yet. I wish I'd at least brought my laptop so I could be working on job applications with this time. These are five hours of my life that I'm never going to get back . . .
Apparently I'm not nerdy enough for this crap.
Yeah. I get that. At least you tried. You're a good girlfriend
Has he brought you to King Richard's Faire in Carver, MA yet?
Five hours is a very long time when you're just sitting. Be prepared next time. That said, tabletop seems preferable to LARP. Look up LARP you'll be amused.
Has he brought you to King Richard's Faire in Carver, MA yet?
I've always seen tickets for that sold at costco in MA, and have wondered what the deal was with this thing. Is it fun and worth going to for the average person?
I haven't been to the one in MA, but I went to a smaller one in VT and loved it. There's lots of shows and demonstrations to see, and different vendors to browse. I have a thing for swords, so I REALLY enjoyed the weapons vendors.
I've always seen tickets for that sold at costco in MA, and have wondered what the deal was with this thing. Is it fun and worth going to for the average person?
I haven't been to the one in MA, but I went to a smaller one in VT and loved it. There's lots of shows and demonstrations to see, and different vendors to browse. I have a thing for swords, so I REALLY enjoyed the weapons vendors.
So... is it still fun for people who aren't into swords and medieval things? Or will they feel kinda out of place?
So... is it still fun for people who aren't into swords and medieval things? Or will they feel kinda out of place?
I hate it when owners take a pet home to die. Probable FIP kitty came in today for not eating/weight loss. A little stress made her tachypneic and she started turning blue. I went to talk to them while I had her on oxygen especially when the rads turned up pleural effusion. they wanted to take her home and see how she'd be.
yup. it waited for my day off.
I was happy that it missed the Grand Prix
Yes and no. Yes because he has gone to some pretty impulsive lengths with his ex, he's very emotionally impulsive, and he did suggest that he would fly here and that that would allow him to fix things when we were breaking up (which I declined). No because his ex did live locally so it wouldn't have cost him near as much money ($800-1000) and I would like to think he's smarter than that. He's on the welfare system and his mother's life insurance recently came through, leaving him with a decent but still easily squandered sum of money. I would like to think that since he doesn't work, he would not waste his money on a ticket to come see me and try and reconcile when I'm sure somewhere deep down, he's aware that it's over and there's no chance of getting me back. I doubt he'd show up randomly and it probably is irrational, but seeing as he knows my address as he has visited before (and even sent me a Christmas package...), it can be intimidating sometimes.I agree with BlackDog. Also a ticket from Ireland to California is quite expensive, is it not? Hopefully, he won't take any actions. Is there any rational reason for you to believe that he might fly to California and do something that might cause you harm?
Barely slept last night. My husband won't let me drive to school (and I know he's right but that's besides the point) so I am missing class this morning even though I just had a week off. I'm exhausted but still can't sleep.
Anyway, what I'm getting at is that I'm wondering if you guys have any tips or good resources for learning about anesthesia. I've reached out to some of the other more knowledgeable/experienced techs, and I'm hoping that there will be some late-night shifts when it's just me and the vet I'm most comfortable with and I can go over this stuff with her.
It looks like I'm going to stay put this summer and continue working at my clinic. Needless to say, I'm feeling quite anxious.
I don't feel that I was properly trained (the same goes for many of the young vet assistants they hire--we are basically whisked through a check-list over the course of 2 days) and I've always felt really uncomfortable prepping for Sx and monitoring patients/anesthesia during the procedures. My last emergency surgery back in December was a nightmare; the patient died on the table... She was a very poor Sx candidate as it was, but I can't help but feel that my lack of experience/confidence was a contributing factor.
I always do my very best to communicate with the veterinarians, but that doesn't always make things easier. Anyway, what I'm getting at is that I'm wondering if you guys have any tips or good resources for learning about anesthesia. I've reached out to some of the other more knowledgeable/experienced techs, and I'm hoping that there will be some late-night shifts when it's just me and the vet I'm most comfortable with and I can go over this stuff with her.
Our clinic had a chart of what heart rate, bp, respiratory rate, and O2 values were normal for each animal under anesthesia based on breed/weight. You might want to see if you can find something similar. The techs/vets were also totally okay with me just calling out whatever the bp was when I checked it every five minutes, because they knew I was not yet comfortable determining what was normal. They preferred to hear me say normal values out loud constantly, rather than risk missing something abnormal simply because I wasn't experienced enough to know what to look for. Depending on the environment at your particular clinic, you might be able to just ask the vets you're working with if it's okay for you to verbally confirm things during surgery until you get more comfortable. That definitely helped for me.