The OP was a junior at the time, and in my book, that's when one is supposed to know better.
But 100% agree with you otherwise.
OP, take this to the Confidential Consult forum if you're not comfortable in sharing details
lucario (great taste in pokemon btw),
I've scoured the internet like you are, looking for an answer. Here's what I've found so far after reading multiple posts from adcoms like Goro.
Each one is different. Like Goro mentioned above, you were a junior, and you got an
F. Even if you didn't cheat, that would stand out. Since you got an F I'm going to assume that you cheated with the intent to cheat, or on an exam or something. I make the distinction here because in my case (plagiarism), my school makes a distinction for intent, and that resulted in my grade going from an A- to a B+. For comparison, mine was in my sophomore year, and I'm taking 2 gap years. You should be prepared to take
at least a few years off. Time off is essential, there is no right answer for time off but there are wrong answers. And that depends on what kind of academic dishonesty..... Forgot a citation?--> get off this forum you're fine Stole your professor's car to get the answer to a question?---> loooong time.
What you do
FROM NOW ON MATTERS. Stop beating yourself up, stop questioning it. You're just wasting time. It's part of the process but don't dwell on it. Get yourself involved responsibly. I worked with the professor whose class I plagiarized in to do something that I am even more proud of than any of my test scores. You can show that you've changed, but with your actions over time.
Your application now has to be
strong. You just gave every school a reason to toss you in the bin, give them some other reasons not to (STRONG MCAT, 4.0 after your mistake, great ECs,etc etc).
Silver lining: This is the worst thing that's probably ever happened to you, but it can be the best thing with reflection, time, and commitment.
good luck friend, I believe in you