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(After rereading this I've realized that I haven't made adequately clear anywhere that I am an undergraduate hoping to one day get into an MD/PhD program, so I'm putting it here.)
I've had a rough year, with the fault resting on nobody's shoulders but my own. I need to make a decision now though on the direction I head, and I'm hoping you can help. Here's where I'm at:
Cumulative GPA at end of year 2 - 3.92
Year 2/3 summer GPA - 3.83
Year 3 fall GPA - 3.43
Year 3 winter -
Between December and late February I went through what I have to imagine was genuine clinical depression. In consideration of your time and my own neurosis/fixation with hyper-anonymity I'll spare you the detailed pathos. When I snapped out of it (I don't believe this is the right way to put it but I'm at a loss here), I was failing all of my classes. I decided after going over the syllabuses again that two classes out of three were salvageable, one because the lowest exam is dropped at the end and the other because we had only completed about 25-30% of the class points. In the third one, however, I was doomed to no better than a C+ no matter how stellar of a job I did on the last exam and final, so I dropped it for a WP.
I've worked hard since then. My grades are higher and I recognize the familiar feeling of actually understanding the material. I was set to take my second exam at 8 A.M. this morning (the one that would replace my F in the class I mentioned earlier), and my alarm clock failed. I actually woke up at 8:01 on my own (I'm not religious, but considering my sleep schedule and how this last week has been, that was a message from god), put on my pants and shoes, ran out the door, and made it with less than 2 minutes before the end of the exam in the hopes that the professor would reconsider his no make-up policy when I clearly had no contact with others that took the test. I wouldn't be making this post if he had said yes, but there also may be a silver lining because I've had some doubt regarding my future as well and this prompted me to consider it heavily and take action in seeking advice.
Which leads me to my two questions.
1. Can I afford to drop another class in the same semester? I was enrolled in four total, and if I drop it I'll basically have two WP's, one A or A-, and one directed study(research) which I think shows up as a Y until you graduate (at which point I expect an A). My other choice is to stick it out, but anything higher than a B- is unlikely.
2. I believe doubts I had about wanting to go to medical school strongly contributed to my depression. What really caused these doubts weren't the time commitment or a lack of interest or anything like that, but just looking around the room in my medical school prerequisite classes. I admit I'm a pretty weird person, but I was really hoping that at medical school I would be around people I could relate to, at least better than the average person off the street. Most of the people I meet that are pre-med or have that I have the displeasure of being within earshot of strike me as egotistical, shallow, and completly uninterested in anything besides grades, rank, salary, and planning which year of medical school they will take off to get married or how many kids they will have by their dermatology residency. If this comes off as snooty or elitist to anybody I'm sorry. Part of me says I should just keep my nose in the books and not worry about anybody else, especially considering there are people you won't get along with no matter where you are in life. Part of me wonder's if heading to a demanding 8 year program in a place where I know nobody and have no one to fall back on is a good decision. Now that I've written this I'm not even entirely sure what my question is. If you could just share any similar experiences or thoughts to ease my concerns, or just call me a pretentious sh*thead, I'd be really thankful
I've had a rough year, with the fault resting on nobody's shoulders but my own. I need to make a decision now though on the direction I head, and I'm hoping you can help. Here's where I'm at:
Cumulative GPA at end of year 2 - 3.92
Year 2/3 summer GPA - 3.83
Year 3 fall GPA - 3.43
Year 3 winter -
Between December and late February I went through what I have to imagine was genuine clinical depression. In consideration of your time and my own neurosis/fixation with hyper-anonymity I'll spare you the detailed pathos. When I snapped out of it (I don't believe this is the right way to put it but I'm at a loss here), I was failing all of my classes. I decided after going over the syllabuses again that two classes out of three were salvageable, one because the lowest exam is dropped at the end and the other because we had only completed about 25-30% of the class points. In the third one, however, I was doomed to no better than a C+ no matter how stellar of a job I did on the last exam and final, so I dropped it for a WP.
I've worked hard since then. My grades are higher and I recognize the familiar feeling of actually understanding the material. I was set to take my second exam at 8 A.M. this morning (the one that would replace my F in the class I mentioned earlier), and my alarm clock failed. I actually woke up at 8:01 on my own (I'm not religious, but considering my sleep schedule and how this last week has been, that was a message from god), put on my pants and shoes, ran out the door, and made it with less than 2 minutes before the end of the exam in the hopes that the professor would reconsider his no make-up policy when I clearly had no contact with others that took the test. I wouldn't be making this post if he had said yes, but there also may be a silver lining because I've had some doubt regarding my future as well and this prompted me to consider it heavily and take action in seeking advice.
Which leads me to my two questions.
1. Can I afford to drop another class in the same semester? I was enrolled in four total, and if I drop it I'll basically have two WP's, one A or A-, and one directed study(research) which I think shows up as a Y until you graduate (at which point I expect an A). My other choice is to stick it out, but anything higher than a B- is unlikely.
2. I believe doubts I had about wanting to go to medical school strongly contributed to my depression. What really caused these doubts weren't the time commitment or a lack of interest or anything like that, but just looking around the room in my medical school prerequisite classes. I admit I'm a pretty weird person, but I was really hoping that at medical school I would be around people I could relate to, at least better than the average person off the street. Most of the people I meet that are pre-med or have that I have the displeasure of being within earshot of strike me as egotistical, shallow, and completly uninterested in anything besides grades, rank, salary, and planning which year of medical school they will take off to get married or how many kids they will have by their dermatology residency. If this comes off as snooty or elitist to anybody I'm sorry. Part of me says I should just keep my nose in the books and not worry about anybody else, especially considering there are people you won't get along with no matter where you are in life. Part of me wonder's if heading to a demanding 8 year program in a place where I know nobody and have no one to fall back on is a good decision. Now that I've written this I'm not even entirely sure what my question is. If you could just share any similar experiences or thoughts to ease my concerns, or just call me a pretentious sh*thead, I'd be really thankful