Am I not Serious enough??

[kgamon8]

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i did it

 

[7331poas]

if you are getting upset about A minuses you are neurotic. Not "weak"

 

[Blessthefall]

Okay I really want to go to med school. It took a lot of soul searching, but between actually developing a love for science, realizing I don't want to be in a lab forever, and working in the student health center, I know this is what I want to do.
But of course, it happened after a depressive episode freshman year and feeling lost/impassionate fall of sophomore year. Now my GPA is a 3.74, and I have to face the wrath of biochem and physics 2 (barely got a B in physics 1!!). I know that I am intelligent, but (and I'm really embarrassed by it) my mental state really affects my performance.
Like in Ochem1, I was doing great. Then I started feeling depressed in the winter, and got an A-, when I was set to get an A+. Then in Ochem 2, I was off to a terrible 3/4 of the semester, then after a day of feeling miserable and crying, studied for days on end to secure a 100 on my test before the final (i got an A). I just know that I can't always count on myself to do my best because I get affected by so much. I dislike my school but already decided it was best to stay bc of free tuition. Am I just "weak"??

Cut out the self-loathing.

Everyone's initial GPA in college is suboptimal, there's an academic and social/ environemtal learning curve involved.

Keep your mind focused on what you're trying to achieve and you'll be fine in the long run.

Also, free tuition is something no one is making you "settle for". Take the free lunch and enjoy that you're better off than the other 90% of your undergrad peers.

 

[7331poas]

No that's one of my best classes! I am just saying it's an example of where my mental health brings me down for a small amount, but that adds up. Like a B in genetics

Listen. You have a "problem" (if you want to call it that). But its not your mental health "bringing down your grades". Its that you aren't happy about your disposition in life. You are doing great. You have a full tuition scholarship and a great GPA.

You just need to chill out. Statements like "I have to face the wrath of biochem and physics". There is no "wrath". They are just classes. You will do fine in them and then you will move on with your life.

 

[AttemptingScholar]

Gonna agree with the above. Not sure you have your priorities in order and you seem to be having a tendency to blame things that aren't yourself for your mistakes. Mental health needs treatment, medical school can break even healthy students. You don't want to go in unprepared.
Work on your attitude and your mental health and get back to us.

 

[reaction mechanisms]

Work on your self confidence and stop stressing so much. Your grades are fine.


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[miniman]

Talk with a school mental health counseler. You need some balance in your life... 🙂 I know where you are coming from, so don't wory, you are doing great!

 

[mango1300]

University is a roller-coaster of trying to figure yourself out & do your best in school. Part of that process is learning to work with yourself in terms of academics, mental health, and physical health. Along the way you'll learn how to prevent mental/emotional tendencies from affecting your performance. This is something that can take many people a long time to work out. It's also an important skill to master for your future as a doctor!

You're not weak, maybe you just have room to grow. Seeing a counsellor (one that is a good fit with your personality) can be a really helpful part of giving yourself the tools to succeed and seeking stability. It's never too late, many people have come back from crap GPAs and rough years in their lives to succeed in medical school. You'll have many more challenges ahead that can definitely seem daunting but you seem passionate about your choice. Being a pre-med/applicant is a time that is filled with a lot of fear, uncertainty, and doubt for almost everyone. Remember your strengths and your unique qualities. If you want it, go get it!

 

[miniman]

Seeing a counsellor (one that is a good fit with your personality) can be a really helpful part of giving yourself the tools to succeed and seeking stability.

Oh how true this statement is. I was luck on my first try, others I know had to try multiple times before they found the right one. 🙂

 

[mango1300]

@miniman Totally agree! If you feel ****ty after your sessions, judged, or whatever, try someone different!! No one in the office will be offended/care, they just want you to get the counseling you need and many times that can come down to having the right person.

 

[bbbcccppp]

if you are getting upset about A minuses you are neurotic. Not "weak"

Well you aren't casting aspersions on others and I would call that a good start.


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[bbbcccppp]

Your happiness and balance supercede your career goal. The fact that you are maintaining excellent grades is commendable Your school may have available student counseling resources and they can be very helpful.
Exercise is always helpful.


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[JJRousseau]

I am (without adequate data to prove it), an adamant believer that the chief factor in undergraduate performance is mental health and well-being. Happy students make great students. Most people that show up at selective institutions have the raw materials, but their success depends heavily upon whether or not their emotional state enables them to succeed during their four years. My two cents.

 

[kgamon8]

@miniman Totally agree! If you feel ****ty after your sessions, judged, or whatever, try someone different!! No one in the office will be offended/care, they just want you to get the counseling you need and many times that can come down to having the right person.

My therapist is actually moving to China.. he received a Fullbright there five years ago I think, and they were really impressed by him, and he opened a clinic...And now he is going to teach there!
I feel like I sound so dramatic but I relied on counseling to get through my feelings of isolation at my school, but I guess I must power through

 

[mango1300]

My therapist is actually moving to China.. he received a Fullbright there five years ago I think, and they were really impressed by him, and he opened a clinic...And now he is going to teach there!
I feel like I sound so dramatic but I relied on counseling to get through my feelings of isolation at my school, but I guess I must power through

Sorry to hear he's moving, hopefully you can find someone else! Good luck with your studies