I'm 2 years into a peds fellowship - and increasingly miserable as the days go by. Fifteen months to go before I'm done. I miss primary care terribly and when I finish, I will likely not practice much in my chosen (very depressing and frustrating) subspecialty. Also: the fellowship itself is absurd and rather malignant, I'm taught nothing, essentially treated like an intern by my attendings, etc.
The reason to stay on would be to take on extra consulting work and maybe make a slightly better living with the subspecialty training. However... having daily near-unbearable anxiety and the next year-plus-two-months looking very grim.
Thoughts? I did sign my contract for the upcoming academic year, but I don't quite know what that means. Also I'm the only fellow in my program so the program would essentially die with me (good riddance). Dreaming of just returning to good old primary care peds.
The reason to stay on would be to take on extra consulting work and maybe make a slightly better living with the subspecialty training. However... having daily near-unbearable anxiety and the next year-plus-two-months looking very grim.
Thoughts? I did sign my contract for the upcoming academic year, but I don't quite know what that means. Also I'm the only fellow in my program so the program would essentially die with me (good riddance). Dreaming of just returning to good old primary care peds.