Anyone else not that happy after first acceptance?

[calivianya]

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The entitlement here is real. If an acceptance is something that in your mind, you felt entitled to, of course you won't be excited when it happens. You already expected it. On the other hand, if you spent years fighting tooth and nail to receive an acceptance after going your entire life believing you would never make it in life, let alone as a physician, you best believe you will be excited. I am an atheist but when I got my acceptance I was ready to drop to my knees and thank the lord for this opportunity to become somebody and make a difference in my community.

This is true, too.

I was accepted to every undergrad I applied to, with scholarships to every single one including a full ride, graduated in the top of my class whenever I put the effort in (which was not often after high school), scored 99th percentile on every standardized test except the MCAT (93rd), have gotten every promotion I've applied for at every job I've held, landed a competitive specialty that doesn't often take new graduates right out of undergrad in my previous career... I have worked for everything I've accomplished, but I've always gotten what I've wanted in the end. Putting in the effort and not receiving what I was working for was a foreign idea.

The process of applying to med school has been humbling, to say the least. I'd actually say humiliating/debasing are way more accurate terms.

 

[CUatthefinishline]

I've never been much of an emotional/public crier or one to publicly display emotion outside of laughter/happy/giddy (the happy stuff). Also, I'm way too empathetic and the emotions of others tend to get me up or down/contemplative. My gf is the first person I told & she was super excited which got me bright & happy (not crying, but also super relaxed). However, my immediate family was not thrilled & didn't even call/text after I told them because the school is far away & they've been rather negative as a whole..... Sooooooo, that has kind of made it not as exciting for me but it keeps hitting me at different times so I'm getting to a better place, especially as I tell more people that are just thrilled 🙂 I don't want to look back on this time & feel I wasted it not being proud/happy for myself & my accomplishments. It's taking everything for me to get this far & it's a big deal so I should treat it as such while I can.

 

[ekmf27050]

I've never been much of an emotional/public crier or one to publicly display emotion outside of laughter/happy/giddy (the happy stuff). Also, I'm way too empathetic and the emotions of others tend to get me up or down/contemplative. My gf is the first person I told & she was super excited which got me bright & happy (not crying, but also super relaxed). However, my immediate family was not thrilled & didn't even call/text after I told them because the school is far away & they've been rather negative as a whole..... Sooooooo, that has kind of made it not as exciting for me but it keeps hitting me at different times so I'm getting to a better place, especially as I tell more people that are just thrilled 🙂 I don't want to look back on this time & feel I wasted it not being proud/happy for myself & my accomplishments. It's taking everything for me to get this far & it's a big deal so I should treat it as such while I can.

Ugh I'm sorry about your family. Us internet strangers are very proud of you and happy for you!!!😛

I don't think many of us will disagree that getting into medical school is a difficult feat, so whether you celebrate right after acceptance or a couple weeks later, with laughter or tears or screaming into the void, just do whatever feels right for you.

 

[ephemeralsunshine]

bless this thread! I thought I was the only one that felt this way...

 

[AttemptingScholar]

I can't talk about med school, but I was never excited at all about getting my college acceptance letters. I did get excited when I showed up to college. The acceptances didn't really have an emotional response, but it didn't mean I wasn't happy to go to college. The emotional response just hit me later in the timeline.

 

[MDPedigree]

bless this thread! I thought I was the only one that felt this way...

THANK YOU FOR AGREEING WITH ME. Some people on here are making me feel like I'm crazy and have no emotions... When I'm really a very emotional person.

 

[lovehate]

Same, I just felt normal. Maybe a bit relieved. I think my family and friends were happier for me than myself.
I have had my first acceptance a few months ago. Over time you start to enjoy the relief more. You don't feel guilty having fun or wasting time.
Congrats

 

[MarineMDHopeful]

I think you feel the level emotion commensurate with the level of interest you have in the school. When I got my first (to a safety school) I was relieved but definitely not overjoyed. But when I just got accepted to my DREAM school I lost it, full on ugly cry. Just always be aware of your feelings they should guide you.

Also, I am 10000% not entitled. Grew up on welfare and food stamps and only person in my family to go to college. The simple fact is that your unconscious emotion can be VERY telling if you let it.

 

[ephemeralsunshine]

I just need closure from every school that I've interviewed at which makes it hard for me to appreciate the school I've been accepted to/will likely matriculate at. I'm frustrated that there are schools that really just don't ever reject you after you interview.

 

[BuckStrickland]

This is true, too.

I was accepted to every undergrad I applied to, with scholarships to every single one including a full ride, graduated in the top of my class whenever I put the effort in (which was not often after high school), scored 99th percentile on every standardized test except the MCAT (93rd), have gotten every promotion I've applied for at every job I've held, landed a competitive specialty that doesn't often take new graduates right out of undergrad in my previous career... I have worked for everything I've accomplished, but I've always gotten what I've wanted in the end. Putting in the effort and not receiving what I was working for was a foreign idea.

The process of applying to med school has been humbling, to say the least. I'd actually say humiliating/debasing are way more accurate terms.

I know this post was made a week ago, but it is the one that rings true with me the most. I think most of us on SDN are high achievers, and in my case I never really failed at anything in my life until I got 25 straight rejections my first cycle. I think in the long run it will be an important experience for me, because I have this burning desire now to never let anything like this ever happen again lol I am entering new gunner territory never before experienced xD