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This is a rant so please bear with me.
Here's some information about me. I was a great, diligent student in high school, I have a 4.00 GPA and took all the AP courses offered in my public high school. I scored a 2260 on the SAT. My typical day after school would be 1 hour of TV and the rest of the time would be devoted to studying. I ended up going to a top 20 private research university on a generous scholarship.
However, when I got to college, I changed. I lost my motivation and drive. After my junior year, my cumulative GPA has dropped to 3.66 (I know this isn't a terrible GPA, but I felt guilty because it could've been higher if I had the motivation from my high school years). In college, there were many days that I didn't get any studying done due to my lack of motivation. I felt like big draft busts in sports, like Ryan Leaf of the NFL and Michael Beasley of the NBA. Players that are beasting in college, but suck in their professional field.
Okay, so back to the MCAT, I originally planned to take the MCAT in the summer of my junior year like all premeds (May 23). I reviewed all the contents with EK during the winter break, however, when I got back to school, I lost my motivation again for 2 months and so didn't study for the MCAT at all. In late March, I took the AAMC free e-mcat practice test for the first time and scored a 23. I was sure that 1.5 month of studying wouldn't improve much so I canceled the MCAT on May 23. AND I PAINFULLY DECIDED TO TAKE A GAP YEAR. Since scoring the 23 on the practice MCAT in late March, my confidence was further crushed, and I haven't had the courage to pick up a MCAT prep book to study. I have never felt so depressed and helpless in my short life.
I plan to take the MCAT next January since I would have enough time to straighten myself out and hopefully study hardcore for the MCAT with the same intensity as my SAT studying in high school.
Thank you for your time reading my long rant.
Here's some information about me. I was a great, diligent student in high school, I have a 4.00 GPA and took all the AP courses offered in my public high school. I scored a 2260 on the SAT. My typical day after school would be 1 hour of TV and the rest of the time would be devoted to studying. I ended up going to a top 20 private research university on a generous scholarship.
However, when I got to college, I changed. I lost my motivation and drive. After my junior year, my cumulative GPA has dropped to 3.66 (I know this isn't a terrible GPA, but I felt guilty because it could've been higher if I had the motivation from my high school years). In college, there were many days that I didn't get any studying done due to my lack of motivation. I felt like big draft busts in sports, like Ryan Leaf of the NFL and Michael Beasley of the NBA. Players that are beasting in college, but suck in their professional field.
Okay, so back to the MCAT, I originally planned to take the MCAT in the summer of my junior year like all premeds (May 23). I reviewed all the contents with EK during the winter break, however, when I got back to school, I lost my motivation again for 2 months and so didn't study for the MCAT at all. In late March, I took the AAMC free e-mcat practice test for the first time and scored a 23. I was sure that 1.5 month of studying wouldn't improve much so I canceled the MCAT on May 23. AND I PAINFULLY DECIDED TO TAKE A GAP YEAR. Since scoring the 23 on the practice MCAT in late March, my confidence was further crushed, and I haven't had the courage to pick up a MCAT prep book to study. I have never felt so depressed and helpless in my short life.
I plan to take the MCAT next January since I would have enough time to straighten myself out and hopefully study hardcore for the MCAT with the same intensity as my SAT studying in high school.
Thank you for your time reading my long rant.
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