Hello. I've recently been diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. I'm 20 years old and just graduated from undergrad. I was the type of student that never went to class (because It was absolutly worthless and I only could focus on the lecturer for about ten minutes max), never studied ( i mean, NEVER...I have never studied a day in my life even though I have tried time and time again), and crams like a mad psycho at 4AM with ten cups of expresso 5 hours before the big exam (finals included).
As a kid I was real trouble maker and was a bother to my teachers. I spent half of the third grade with my desk facing the wall and my back to the teachers desk...totally cut off from the rest of the class due to my inattention. High school...no studying, never did hw, but I crammed during lunch for tests. Because my grades were very good and I was not what you would call "hyper" ( i'm a girl and they are typically underdiagnosed) nobody guessed that the reason I misbehaved, didn't pay attention, and never studied was because I tried, tried, tired and FAILED to focus. I was so frustrated with studying that i just didn' t do it. Somehow I was able to compensate and get through college, make a decent GPA, and get into medical school.
I was taking a test this past semester the way I usually do (with my fingers jammed into my ears while reading the questions...removing them to mark my answer...and then putting them back in so i could read the next question). A girl next to me asked me why i did that and I explained that the sound of my neighbor's pencil marking and even thier breathing was a major distraction and caused me to preform horribly on exams. She looked at me seriously and said, "you must have ADD"...
Honstly, I did not believe in ADD. I thought that it was just a made up disorder to explain away naughty children. I thought about it the next few weeks and began to realize that my entire life...the procrastination, the cramming, the useless lectures (i claimed prior to this that i just wasn't an auitory learner) and the problems with focusing even at the library...ALL MADE SENSE
So i got a diagnoses. I turned down the adderall prescription so I could think about it...and pray (as I am a religions person and wonder if taking drugs was really the answer). My question is...does anybody out there have ADD and what drugs do you take? Do they help? Are you addicted? Do you feel dizzy, nauseated...maybe high like you are on cocaine or something equally horrible?
I need help...i'm scared to take the script and start taking these stimulants. But at the same time, If I could actually learn in class, get my money's worth out of the lecture, be able to study sooner than 3 hours before the exam...wow.
thanks for your help