LadyJubilee8_18 said:
But if God/divinity/spirituality does not exist, then there is no after life and you will never know if your life was "meaningless" (though I don't think it would be even if you were wrong about belief). If God does exist and there is an afterlife of some sort (heaven, reincarnation, something) then you are screwed if you don't believe. (Pascal's wager, though Pascal used better wording
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Besides, there have been many times in my life when faith has been the only thing to get me through. One big reason why I believe is rooted in personal experience. In high school, I was trying to carbon monoxide poison myself while my parents were away. I went into the garage, got into my dad's car, and turned it on at 4:00pm knowing that my mom always gets home around 8:00pm. That day, my Mom got home at around 4:05-4:10 and saved my life. What are the odds? Stuff like that makes me believe.
(1) Sorry- not that easy. You disregard a number of crucial points in your simplistic view of Pascal's wager.
Pascal lived in a simple religious environment- you either believed in the Judeo Christian (J-C) God (specifically Roman Catholicism) or you didn't. If that was the way life really is, his logic would work just fine. Unfortunately, there are over 2500 different Gods/supernatural beings believed in by people on this earth. Even if we assume that one of these 2500 is correct (which is in NO way guaranteed), our absolute best shot at selecting the "right" God is is 1 in 2500. We can also introduce the infinite number of conceivable deities that people don't (yet) worship. For example, there could be a God that rewards people who most often step on sidewalk cracks. After all, God is incomprehensible... he can do what he wants.
This is what Pascal proposes:
(Option 1) God exists
a. you believe- hooray!
b. you don't- eternal pain, etc.
(Option 2) God doesn't exist
a. you believe- eh, whoops
b. you don't- eh, i was right
Real choices:
(Option 1) J-C God exists
a. you believe in J-C God- hooray!
b. you believe in God X- eternal pain, etc.
c. you believe in God Y- eternal pain
...
(on to infinity)
z. you don't believe in anything- eternal pain
(Option 2) God X exists
a. you believe in God X- hooray!
b. you believe in J-C God- eternal pain
c. you believe in God Y- eternal pain
...
(on to infinity)
There are infinitely many such options- you coudl makea box for every conceivable state of God-truth. Each such option has infinitely many beleif states, only one of which results in eternal happiness. All others (most atleast) result in eternal pain.
For a great number of these Gods, believing in other, false deities results in eternal damnation- like Christianity does for example. "Put no other Gods before me" and such. Thus, 2499 times out of 2500 (EVEN if you assume God exists as one of the religions we already practice on Earth) you suffer eternal damnation. (see chart above) It becomes clear that blindly believing is NOT a good bet.
There is also the oft-suggested theory of a creator who "rewards intellectual honesty, a God who rewards atheists with eternal bliss simply because they dared to follow where the evidence leads - that given the available evidence, no God exists!" (Gale, On the Nature and Existence of God: p345-354)
(2) I am truly glad that you were unsuccesful in your suicide attempt. It's tragic that so many young people looking forward to full lives feel forced to end their lives- I'm happy that you consider life worth living again.
However, I have to disgree with your interpretation of the events. You suggest that the odds of your mom returning when she did were so slim as to suggest that God played a role in saving your life. I am forced to ask, then, what this means for the many young people who DO succesfully commit suicide. Did God want them to die? He apparently wanted you to live, and therefore did something about it. Must I conclude that God wanted others to kill themselves? Don't you think it a tad arrogant to presume that you are SO much more special than the thousands of suicide victims each year that God himself elected to intervene?