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Hi guys, I just finished my first semester at university and to be quite frank, my grades are **** (and not like OHHHH MUH 3.9 kind of bad). I took 13 credit hours this semester, 7 of which were core science (bio lec+lab, chem lec) and two electives. \n
Well, all my grades have come in and its looking like I won't make a single A this semester. I had solid A-'s in my two electives but my finals tanked those to a B and B+, while I got a C+ in chem, C in bio lab (1 hr, separate from lecture), and my bio lecture final has not come in yet but worst case scenario I make a C, best case scenario an A but that's unlikely. I'm scared that if I don't raise my GPA I will lose my scholarships (my uni is an expensive private uni, I'm ****ed without them).\n
Now, I actually do have a good understanding of why my grades are so awful, and there is a couple of reasons. First of all, thoughout high school I breezed through my AP courses and all that without studying, resulting in me developing horrible study habits. Honestly I have a very hard time focusing and my "study time" is very inefficiently spent just daydreaming and literally just sitting staring at the book spaced out. Second of all, my parents were very restrictive of my gaming, so when I moved out to uni, I ended up wasting a lot of time just sitting in my dorm playing video games. I don't know how I'll fix the spacing out problem, probably brute force and maybe splashing water in my face when I start to space out. The gaming, I'll be setting up two accounts on my computer, one for gaming, youtube, etc, and the other for just studying, as well as other things like planning out my studying and getting ahead.\n
It's only a matter of time before my mom checks my grades (she has my password) and my parents and I have a "talk" about my future. Thing is, my parents think I go out and party and attract women (I drank a few times and had a "date" (was friend group to orchestra w/ 3 guys 1 girl, girl invited me) and they found out, they are strict muslims and both are very forbidden in Islam, I am in-closet atheist) and they keep quoting that as the reason for my failure and that I might not be ready for premed, they also tell me I only took 4 courses (technically 5 but I tended to neglect bio lab, hence the C) and that if I can't handle that, how would I handle when courses get harder? I'm taking 14 credit hours next semester and the courses are getting significantly more difficult and I just don't know what I'm going to do, if I lose my scholarships then I am done for. My parents also want me to transfer to another cheaper university next year unless I can get Straight A's for the rest of university (idk if I can get a single B and still get a good enough GPA for med school).\n
**** where is the hope, I'm so ****ing scared what they will say/do once they find out my final grades but even if I improve is there any hope for med school remaining or am I done for and need to change major (I'm biochemistry rn) because if that's the case then I will just accept defeat and move on, I dont even know if Im looking for actual advice or just some positiveisity and reasusrrement within all this despair and negativity and hopelessness.
also my gpa is a 2.84
tl;dr: if you're too lazy to read then at least give me a hug before I cut myself again
Well, all my grades have come in and its looking like I won't make a single A this semester. I had solid A-'s in my two electives but my finals tanked those to a B and B+, while I got a C+ in chem, C in bio lab (1 hr, separate from lecture), and my bio lecture final has not come in yet but worst case scenario I make a C, best case scenario an A but that's unlikely. I'm scared that if I don't raise my GPA I will lose my scholarships (my uni is an expensive private uni, I'm ****ed without them).\n
Now, I actually do have a good understanding of why my grades are so awful, and there is a couple of reasons. First of all, thoughout high school I breezed through my AP courses and all that without studying, resulting in me developing horrible study habits. Honestly I have a very hard time focusing and my "study time" is very inefficiently spent just daydreaming and literally just sitting staring at the book spaced out. Second of all, my parents were very restrictive of my gaming, so when I moved out to uni, I ended up wasting a lot of time just sitting in my dorm playing video games. I don't know how I'll fix the spacing out problem, probably brute force and maybe splashing water in my face when I start to space out. The gaming, I'll be setting up two accounts on my computer, one for gaming, youtube, etc, and the other for just studying, as well as other things like planning out my studying and getting ahead.\n
It's only a matter of time before my mom checks my grades (she has my password) and my parents and I have a "talk" about my future. Thing is, my parents think I go out and party and attract women (I drank a few times and had a "date" (was friend group to orchestra w/ 3 guys 1 girl, girl invited me) and they found out, they are strict muslims and both are very forbidden in Islam, I am in-closet atheist) and they keep quoting that as the reason for my failure and that I might not be ready for premed, they also tell me I only took 4 courses (technically 5 but I tended to neglect bio lab, hence the C) and that if I can't handle that, how would I handle when courses get harder? I'm taking 14 credit hours next semester and the courses are getting significantly more difficult and I just don't know what I'm going to do, if I lose my scholarships then I am done for. My parents also want me to transfer to another cheaper university next year unless I can get Straight A's for the rest of university (idk if I can get a single B and still get a good enough GPA for med school).\n
**** where is the hope, I'm so ****ing scared what they will say/do once they find out my final grades but even if I improve is there any hope for med school remaining or am I done for and need to change major (I'm biochemistry rn) because if that's the case then I will just accept defeat and move on, I dont even know if Im looking for actual advice or just some positiveisity and reasusrrement within all this despair and negativity and hopelessness.
also my gpa is a 2.84
tl;dr: if you're too lazy to read then at least give me a hug before I cut myself again
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