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I am a medicine intern following a patient in continuity clinic who I'd like to get your thoughts on.
Pt is a 21 y/o M w/ med hx of congenital "vanishing testes" who I started seeing 4 months ago after he outgrew the peds clinic. At the time, he c/o depression, citing "not being able to live a normal life," with passing suicidal thoughts but no immediate intent or plan. I thought about SSRIs for him but instead referred him to endo for testosterone replacement, as I felt that this might be contributory to his depression.
I have seen him 2-3 times since then, and he always remained at his "depressed" baseline. Each time, he has refused psych referral ("that has never worked for me" "no one will ever understand"). My response was to schedule frequent appts with him, so he could talk even if just for 15 minutes. I'm surprised that he has kept every appt.
Today, I saw him again and felt that something was amiss. He was tearful as per normal, but our conversation was unchanged in content -- "I hate my life" "I don't even know why I keep going" -- except for the disturbing addition of: "you won't see me after the summer." I asked what he meant, and he did not elaborate. But when I probed about SI/plan (immediate and in the upcoming weeks), he unequivocally denied. His testosterone has normalized, and I started him on an SSRI, went over a safety plan and told him to come back in 2 wks.
Still, I feel so uneasy about this patient. He said all the right things, but I am paranoid that he is mollifying me and not being totally honest. I feel like I'm over my head and cannot shoulder the burden of being his defacto psychiatrist, in terms of time (his issues go beyond a 15 minute visit) and emotional toll.
Would you have done anything differently? How should I manage him best? How do I connect him with a psychiatrist when he so adamantly refuses to go?
Pt is a 21 y/o M w/ med hx of congenital "vanishing testes" who I started seeing 4 months ago after he outgrew the peds clinic. At the time, he c/o depression, citing "not being able to live a normal life," with passing suicidal thoughts but no immediate intent or plan. I thought about SSRIs for him but instead referred him to endo for testosterone replacement, as I felt that this might be contributory to his depression.
I have seen him 2-3 times since then, and he always remained at his "depressed" baseline. Each time, he has refused psych referral ("that has never worked for me" "no one will ever understand"). My response was to schedule frequent appts with him, so he could talk even if just for 15 minutes. I'm surprised that he has kept every appt.
Today, I saw him again and felt that something was amiss. He was tearful as per normal, but our conversation was unchanged in content -- "I hate my life" "I don't even know why I keep going" -- except for the disturbing addition of: "you won't see me after the summer." I asked what he meant, and he did not elaborate. But when I probed about SI/plan (immediate and in the upcoming weeks), he unequivocally denied. His testosterone has normalized, and I started him on an SSRI, went over a safety plan and told him to come back in 2 wks.
Still, I feel so uneasy about this patient. He said all the right things, but I am paranoid that he is mollifying me and not being totally honest. I feel like I'm over my head and cannot shoulder the burden of being his defacto psychiatrist, in terms of time (his issues go beyond a 15 minute visit) and emotional toll.
Would you have done anything differently? How should I manage him best? How do I connect him with a psychiatrist when he so adamantly refuses to go?