Looking for genuine thoughts and advice from seasoned EM docs. I’m truly at a crossroad in my career and every day am on the verge of resigning, and not because of the reasons frequently discussed such as CMGs, metrics, admin, etc.
I don’t know how to mentally or emotionally deal with the garbage. Yes I see a therapist and they are helpful but since I’m not in a position to talk about this to others in my group, I am interested in the opinions that all of you can offer., since you live it every day. My group (an SDG) has some good people but others will stop at nothing to completely backstab you and think nothing of it. Because of this, I can't reveal to them what they would consider a significant weakness. Overall the group is good, and is not the reason I will leave EM.
I think it’s been highlighted by the pandemic, and how it brings out the stupidity in people, but I have found increasingly often that I hate my patients. Every single one of them. I honestly don’t care if they live or die. I don’t care about their complaints, their health, their pathology, their living situation, or anything else about them.
I don’t know how to reconcile these situations in my mind (we have all been here):
I'm not looking for "get more hobbies". I have plenty that make me very happy and feel fulfilled, and take my mind off of work. As said above I also see a therapist regarding some of these issues and do occasionally find mindfulness helpful. Am I being too idealistic, and just need to get thicker skin and stop complaining?
I appreciate the time of anyone who read my rant and has some genuine non-sarcastic advice. I am relatively early in my career (6 years post residency) and want to get a few more years in for financial reasons only, and am trying to do whatever I can to let myself stand it for that long before I get out.
I don’t know how to mentally or emotionally deal with the garbage. Yes I see a therapist and they are helpful but since I’m not in a position to talk about this to others in my group, I am interested in the opinions that all of you can offer., since you live it every day. My group (an SDG) has some good people but others will stop at nothing to completely backstab you and think nothing of it. Because of this, I can't reveal to them what they would consider a significant weakness. Overall the group is good, and is not the reason I will leave EM.
I think it’s been highlighted by the pandemic, and how it brings out the stupidity in people, but I have found increasingly often that I hate my patients. Every single one of them. I honestly don’t care if they live or die. I don’t care about their complaints, their health, their pathology, their living situation, or anything else about them.
I don’t know how to reconcile these situations in my mind (we have all been here):
- The person who waits 6 hours in the waiting room for a cold/runny nose/musculoskeletal pain/chronic pain/asinine complaint then is pissed you can’t instantly fix them
- The covid patient who has an insane amount of scrutiny for the vaccine but somehow zero for the “infusion”, because they look at it as a quick fix
- The patient who had a major procedure/complications at another hospital who shows up to my (a different system) ED expecting me to be able to offer them all of the resources they need, have all of their records from the other hospital, and produce a specialist who can/is willing to deal with their complications
- The patient who comes in for an idiotic complaint requiring no workup but demanding all kinds of stuff, then 5 minutes later asks how long it will be until they can leave
- People who want things to be wrong with them
I'm not looking for "get more hobbies". I have plenty that make me very happy and feel fulfilled, and take my mind off of work. As said above I also see a therapist regarding some of these issues and do occasionally find mindfulness helpful. Am I being too idealistic, and just need to get thicker skin and stop complaining?
I appreciate the time of anyone who read my rant and has some genuine non-sarcastic advice. I am relatively early in my career (6 years post residency) and want to get a few more years in for financial reasons only, and am trying to do whatever I can to let myself stand it for that long before I get out.