Depression? 3rd year (Halp me)

[laricb]

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For some reason once 3rd year started I've been severely unmotivated and depressed. I don't get why. I have close friends, good with girls (no ED), sleep at least 6 hours, grades are fine, residents/attendings are happy with my performance, but when I get home or wake up in the morning there's this overwhelming dread and depression. Like sometimes I'll wake up a couple hours before my alarm and just sit there staring at my ceiling for hours. I'm not looking for diagnosis or medical help, just wondering if this is kind of common for 3rd years. It hasn't interfered with my life too much (yet?) but it's kind of bothersome. This whole morning I felt like **** mentally so I just played video games the whole time instead of studying lol. I even get tachycardia at times for no reason anxious as ****. Hopefully fb will make me feel better.

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Get evaluated by a doctor, you might be clinically depressed and need some MEDS

 

[Lydian]

Its not uncommon to feel depression at this point, we are all capable of understanding that.

What's more significant from your description of "dread" or tachycardia, or waking up and just staring at the ceiling (ill assume it means not able to fall back asleep or up because of a little anxiety/something on your mind) and always "for no reason at all" is a very typical presentation of generalized anxiety disorder, or you're experiencing panic attacks.

I am by no means saying this as "I study medicine therefore I think its X" but I have dealt with panic attacks since the age of 8 and those things sound pretty typical to me. A feeling of dread, for apparently no reason at all.

You have to identify your trigger. It could be anything, a thought pattern, an unconscious feeling of being trapped, not in control of your life, or having and increased amount of responsibility to not sure you can handling.

I've had anxiety attacks when I get home, despite having a really good day, and kicking butt, but then the slowing down too quickly from the excitement or from being around others, to immediately being alone, sometimes triggers that feeling.

Or coming home, feeling like my whole day was just work, a feeling like I missed something, just a weird/hard to explain type of panic.

When it keeps happening, try to identify the trigger, if its always when you get home after getting off work, that can be pretty telling. Do you think you forgot something? Did you enjoy it too much? Did you hate it so much you dont want to go back? Lots of stuff to think about.