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it's only a couple years ago I set my goal to get into medicine. Now that I got into Med school (just started this year) I regret applying for it. The truth is that I didn't want to become a doctor, because It was my number one goal in life to help people, be a hero or a saint of some sort. I didn't receive ''the calling'' as most others say they did. The truth is that I was allured by the following things: Prestige/status that comes with being a doctor, the reasonably well paid job, and last but more importantly job security.
Dropping out crosses my mind almost everyday, but this is not an easy decision. Everyone in my family is very proud and happy that I got into med school, and leaving it would be a blow to them, so I feel like I have to finish this. Besides I will feel bad for having taken someone elses spot if I do quit. but The truth is Im not happy doing what I do so far, and I am having a hard time just motivating myself to study. It's very time consuming, I feel like I have no life beside studying, and I am afraid it's gonna be like that for at least 5 more years. Then there is the fear that even as a doctor, you might be so busy, you will have no life outside of work. So the thought that has crossed my mind most over the past month is what's the point of having status, wealth, and an almost 99% job security, if you aren't happy and too busy studying/working all the time?
Dropping out crosses my mind almost everyday, but this is not an easy decision. Everyone in my family is very proud and happy that I got into med school, and leaving it would be a blow to them, so I feel like I have to finish this. Besides I will feel bad for having taken someone elses spot if I do quit. but The truth is Im not happy doing what I do so far, and I am having a hard time just motivating myself to study. It's very time consuming, I feel like I have no life beside studying, and I am afraid it's gonna be like that for at least 5 more years. Then there is the fear that even as a doctor, you might be so busy, you will have no life outside of work. So the thought that has crossed my mind most over the past month is what's the point of having status, wealth, and an almost 99% job security, if you aren't happy and too busy studying/working all the time?