I want to add in here on what Stagg and Mass Effect are going back and forth on. There are several signs in any eval that make me less likely to go with controlled medications, and I'm aware that many of these are due to my own countertransferrence:
- insisting on using my first name after correction
- saying "I've earned" or "I'm entitled to" or "it's my right to get" or "you are being unprofessional for not giving me" the specific treatment
- sudden onset of dysfunction in a presentation that doesn't usually do that
- insidious onset of dysfunction in a presentation that doesn't usually do that
- insisting on using the phrase "panic attack" to refer to situations that, based on their description, are not panic attacks, even after psychoeducation
- emailing me or texting my office number instead of sending messages through the portal, even after repeated instruction. If the last text from me is "don't text me, message me on Osmind," then I'm usually prepping myself for the termination speech
- missing multiple appointments without warning
Unfortunately, all of these are rather prominent in the post- TikTok era. People presenting with fear they have BPD usually have all of these but, fascinatingly, low MSI-BPD scores. People presenting with ADHD that wasn't addressed in childhood are also commonly doing the above irksome things. I have to make an effort to set those frustrations aside to make sure I don't under-treat ADHD.