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I started a thread earlier about juggling too many things as a 2nd year, and I'm thinking maybe this is all part of this. Anyway, I've had a few not so great experiences in the past 6 months, including a slightly negative 2nd month of IM wards (did really well in October and kinda mediocre in April largely due to knowledge gaps between me and medicine folks who had been doing medicine all year), a non-enjoyable EM month with average evals and now a transition back to psychiatry with all that 2nd year stuff where I'm juggling a state hospital rotation with call at acute facilities and starting outpatient work.
Just got another super average eval for the state hospital component, and earlier this year hit some super negative comments from nursing about a difficult night on call (started a thread about that one, too, in the residency forum if you're interested). This plus my clinic stalling (lots of appointment issues + me going into nightfloat in a week) has led me feeling fairly frustrated and like I'm really not mastering things the way I should. Oh yeah, and I just took step 3 and have this lingering worry that I failed.
Anyway, I'm just feeling very frustrated with this year and having the feeling that I'm not where I should be and that it's my fault. Unfortunately, I'm not entirely sure how to remedy it either. Frustratingly I did really well in med school (good step scores, AOA, etc.) and got pretty used to positive feedback. Now, I keep on hearing I'm doing OK with nothing really good, and I'm trying to figure out if that's an issue or if my expectations are all screwed up. And yeah, I know, everyone likes it when people like me wind up not being so great, which is again feeding into my negative feelings about my performance. Again, I'm neurotic! Anybody else feel this way? Am I doing as crappy as I feel like I'm doing? Will I feel better later in my training? Jeez.
Just got another super average eval for the state hospital component, and earlier this year hit some super negative comments from nursing about a difficult night on call (started a thread about that one, too, in the residency forum if you're interested). This plus my clinic stalling (lots of appointment issues + me going into nightfloat in a week) has led me feeling fairly frustrated and like I'm really not mastering things the way I should. Oh yeah, and I just took step 3 and have this lingering worry that I failed.
Anyway, I'm just feeling very frustrated with this year and having the feeling that I'm not where I should be and that it's my fault. Unfortunately, I'm not entirely sure how to remedy it either. Frustratingly I did really well in med school (good step scores, AOA, etc.) and got pretty used to positive feedback. Now, I keep on hearing I'm doing OK with nothing really good, and I'm trying to figure out if that's an issue or if my expectations are all screwed up. And yeah, I know, everyone likes it when people like me wind up not being so great, which is again feeding into my negative feelings about my performance. Again, I'm neurotic! Anybody else feel this way? Am I doing as crappy as I feel like I'm doing? Will I feel better later in my training? Jeez.