As of today, I am done with training part of my career. In the last couple of weeks, I have been feeling this growing excitement and energy in me as I was coming close to an end. Euphoria intermixed with optimism. Feeling like the breath I am inhaling is cleaner and the colors are more intense. Feeling much more connected to life and universe. (Folks who experimented with psilocybin would know exactly what I have been feeling). Feeling quite intoxicated. I did not enjoy my training experience neither in residency nor in fellowship. I struggled quite a lot (not academically but the demands and constraints of being a trainee) So I am pretty much feeling like reanimated patient after a difficult surgery. Starting my academic outpatient child psychiatry gig in three weeks;
No more countless number of supervisors and bosses with OCPD traits (Only outpatient director and chairman both of whom appear to be quite reasonable guys)
No more being a punchbag of some attendings, senior residents, social workers, nurses and even techs
No more unpaid labor on weekends
No more outrageous salary
No more need for a book size H/P s and progress notes
Overall, much more autonomy and respect
Opportunity to work with pathologies I am interested rather than I am assigned
Having 8 weeks of PTO rather than 3 -4 weeks max
Flexibility to make my own outpatient schedule rather than being forced to comply with somebody else`s schedule
Opportunity to do my masters and/or PHD tuition free
Am I just living in a dream like state and need to be grounded back to reality? There are some young and seasoned attendings in this forum. I am wondering how you felt during this transition ? It would be good to be grounded back to reality in case I have been just hallucinating/dreaming as I can not take another blow and disappointment at this point.
No more countless number of supervisors and bosses with OCPD traits (Only outpatient director and chairman both of whom appear to be quite reasonable guys)
No more being a punchbag of some attendings, senior residents, social workers, nurses and even techs
No more unpaid labor on weekends
No more outrageous salary
No more need for a book size H/P s and progress notes
Overall, much more autonomy and respect
Opportunity to work with pathologies I am interested rather than I am assigned
Having 8 weeks of PTO rather than 3 -4 weeks max
Flexibility to make my own outpatient schedule rather than being forced to comply with somebody else`s schedule
Opportunity to do my masters and/or PHD tuition free
Am I just living in a dream like state and need to be grounded back to reality? There are some young and seasoned attendings in this forum. I am wondering how you felt during this transition ? It would be good to be grounded back to reality in case I have been just hallucinating/dreaming as I can not take another blow and disappointment at this point.
