I've been working at a retail pharmacy as a pharmacy clerk for almost four months. I've certainly learned a whole lot over these months about the nature of retail and can see myself working in pharmacy for the rest of my life. As a pharmacy clerk, I've been complying with my duties very well and just getting better and better with time...accepting prescriptions from patients, making sure we have medication in stock, filling prescriptions, and handing the medication to the patient after their scripts have been processed. I also answer telephone calls whenever I get a chance. Overall, I tend to feel satisfied and productive at the end of most working days. Today, however, I felt quite the opposite. I felt completely unproductive, completely pitiful, and completely DUMB as a person. Why? Well, though I've been responsible for the above duties, today one of the pharmacists actually began to teach me how to process prescriptions on the pharmacy computer system. This is something I had not done before. She gave me an overview of the system, with its many features, but though I got most of it, I just didn't master all of it at that very instant. As a person, I've been feeling like dog excrement because of the mistakes, lack of knowledge, and obstacles faced while I tried to process two or three prescriptions on my own through the pdx pharmacy system or whatever it's called. I felt like such a loser because I constantly had to ask questions about what to do next, what button to press, why I'm getting this message, what ESI stands for, how to deal with this or that insurance card, what this abbreviation stands for, etc... I normally do not feel this way because I tend to learn things quickly, but when I notice the tech or the pharmacists just navigating through the system with such ease, I envy that. I know it's just the first time I'm doing this, but it's just not a pleasant feeling. As a result of these problems, my self-esteem was shattered, my head was down, and I felt so pathetically dumb that my performance suffered today. I ended the day leaving the pharmacy with my head down, feeling I didn't do anything productive, and that overall, I am a complete failure with pharmacy. Worst of all, I failed myself. With other things, there is simply no confusion, no obstacles, no problems, no misunderstanding. Give me an organic chemistry book problem and I'll get it done in no time. Put me on this system that has so many features and different buttons to press, and all of a sudden, I have an IQ of 25. It's pitiful, dumb, and miserable of me. Anyone else ever feel this way at all?