I don't like hospitals

[andie gustafson]

I've just realized that I don't enjoy hospitals at all, beign around sick and weak people... it's not nice and all the on calls are too much sacrifice how can people expect me to work 36 hrs in a round? that's impossible. I'm feeling truly confused because I wanted to be a doctor all my life but now I see how hard it is, sometimes I think it's impossible to memorize everything I have to. And my hypocondria is getting worse, I can't see any sick person because I get afraid same happens to me. Has anyone felt this way??

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[Krisss17]

I've just realized that I don't enjoy hospitals at all, beign around sick and weak people... it's not nice and all the on calls are too much sacrifice how can people expect me to work 36 hrs in a round? that's impossible. I'm feeling truly confused because I wanted to be a doctor all my life but now I see how hard it is, sometimes I think it's impossible to memorize everything I have to. And my hypocondria is getting worse, I can't see any sick person because I get afraid same happens to me. Has anyone felt this way??

😱 How did you get this far? I assume you are a medical student...didn't you shadow and do some volunteering in the hospital? Yes, hospitals can be quite intimidating at first, but I'm concerned about your post.

Some things are normal. many first year med students feel overwhelmed with the vast amount of information required, and your hypochondria is really just another symptom of being a first year. That's actually more normal than you think and will go away as you go on.

Also, while 36 hrs on seems a lot...there has been many steps so that being on call has been shortened a bit. Also, when something is going on that requires your attention, believe me time will go quickly.

Hospital unfortunately for you will be a major part of your life until you are done with a residency. Then you will need to find something you can do outside.

Take a breath! just take one step at a time...don't focus on things that aren't important at the moment.

 

[tkim]

Where is this wisdom coming from? Have you taken call yet?

 

[Doctor Bagel]

I'm not a huge fan of hospitals or call, either. There's lots of non-hospital work out there for physicians and residencies that don't require you to spend a ton of your time in hospitals.

 

[tkim]

I've just realized that I don't enjoy hospitals at all, beign around sick and weak people... it's not nice and all the on calls are too much sacrifice how can people expect me to work 36 hrs in a round? that's impossible. I'm feeling truly confused because I wanted to be a doctor all my life but now I see how hard it is, sometimes I think it's impossible to memorize everything I have to. And my hypocondria is getting worse, I can't see any sick person because I get afraid same happens to me. Has anyone felt this way??

Didn't you just start second year? Doing call is an endurance test, not a sprint. I'm not sure one ever gets used to it, but you get better at working through the fatigue. As you become more efficient rounding and working, you'll have time to rest a little more. But I agree, call sucks.

 

[doogoshly]

call is freakin fun. i dunno what you're talking about. sure you don't sleep but this is what i got into medicine for.

 

[Pontifex Maximus]

call is freakin fun. i dunno what you're talking about. sure you don't sleep but this is what i got into medicine for.

lol

 

[TXDO]

I've just realized that I don't enjoy hospitals at all, beign around sick and weak people... it's not nice and all the on calls are too much sacrifice how can people expect me to work 36 hrs in a round? that's impossible. I'm feeling truly confused because I wanted to be a doctor all my life but now I see how hard it is, sometimes I think it's impossible to memorize everything I have to. And my hypocondria is getting worse, I can't see any sick person because I get afraid same happens to me. Has anyone felt this way??

This is why medical schools require premed kids get some exposures to health experiences before deciding whether medicine is right choice for them. Don't do medicine just because you think you will make alot $$$.

Hospital is my home, and patients are my family members. Love them and live with them.🙄

 

[Rendar5]

This is why medical schools require premed kids get some exposures to health experiences before deciding whether medicine is right choice for them. Don't do medicine just because you think you will make alot $$$.

Hospital is my home, and patients are my family members. Love them and live with them.🙄

Not all medicine is hospital medicine...

 

[McGillGrad]

Don't feed the troll

 

[Clemson Doc]

I don't really care for hospitals either, which is why I plan on doing private practice. The problem with medical training is that it is very slanted toward hospital/academic medicine. That's fine for those who are on that path, but it is not ideal for those of us who want to do private outpatient practice.

Honestly, it does get more manageable once you learn where you are supposed to be, where the computers are, who to ask for help, etc. Give yourself time to "learn the ropes" and you'll settle in a little more. That's not to say that you will love hospital medicine (I don't), but you will certainly get to the point where it's manageable while you learn what you need to learn before moving on.

My advice (as someone who has completed third year) is to make the most of your time in the hospital. It will be a significant portion of your training for at least the next five years. After that, you will have the option of never working in a hospital again. 🙂

 

[JAR]

I don't like hospitals or call... but figure I don't have to do either when I'm all done with this journey I'm on. Just hang on and get through it. The options are wide open later

 

[Psych2014]

Glad to hear someone else feels teh same, I though "what's wrong with me", I can't stand hosptitals. Between the ego's running around who thrive on knocking others down a notch, or being knocked down themselves, teh stink, and the stress, I have no shame in saying I want to get out of there as soon as possible. I am out of it for 2 rotations, and I am loving it.

Let those who love stress, emergencies, codes, call, and high drama, and ego wars have the place, as fas as I'm concerned. There's a lot of people outside the hospital who need help.

 

[agranulocytosis]

Just quit now. I hate hospitals too and every day I wish I quit and went into meteorology for the spring storm chasing. Damned Discovery Channel. Ruined my life.

 

[ucsfstudents]

It's easy to get depressed and upset when you haven't had plenty of sleep.

I hope that things turn around for you, or that you at least find a specialty that you will enjoy working in. I think you should start thinking about the type of environment you feel most comfortable in and find a specialty that will fulfill this.

Also think about what you are grateful for, and what you have that others, say in other countries, and even in this country, would give an arm and a leg for.

Advise premeds to shadow physicians and to get exposure to the grittier aspects of medicine before applying.

Medical school can be a gruesome process for some, but hopefully it all works out for you in the end.

Finally, don't forget to talk to mentors you trust about your current feelings. They might be able to steer you in the right direction.

 

[Llenroc]

This reminds me of that episode of the Simpsons where Otto's fiancee admits she's not big on heavy metal music...

 

[Psych2014]

Are you a troll? Why haven't you checked in, or said "thank you".

there's some pretty caring, compassionate comments here.

If not, maybe this discomfort can be a catalyst for you to get needed help. I hope you do value yourself enough to get help for your phobia and it's underlying issues. As someone mentioned, it's likely you have tallent and a calling if you've gotten this far. You're just hitting a barrier that is awakening something in you that needs adressing.

Ps. McGillGradd, how did you know this is a troll?

 

[McGillGrad]

It is pretty obvious by the delicious set-up, the naivety of the question at the end and the use of emotionally charged buzzwords. Then again, it could just be some douche-bag-in-training. It takes all kinds.

Are you a troll? Why haven't you checked in, or said "thank you".

there's some pretty caring, compassionate comments here.


Ps. McGillGradd, how did you know this is a troll?

 

[Psych2014]

pardon my naivety to many things about social networking and forums, but I'm curious what someone gains out of trolling like this? What's the point? Kind of like Munchausen's?

 

[sprinkibrio]

My terminal paitents have really been depressing me... so far 70% of my patients on medicine will die in the next year or two (or much, much sooner). Only one has gone home pretty healthy and controlled. The other 30% have been drug-seeking or crazy. SIGH.

 

[adeline]

pardon my naivety to many things about social networking and forums, but I'm curious what someone gains out of trolling like this? What's the point? Kind of like Munchausen's?

Momentary entertainment and/or pleasure.

Yes, that kind.

 

[Psych2014]

twittering would be a nicer way to waste your time

 

[USArmyDoc]

QUOTE=TXDO;8417107]This is why medical schools require premed kids get some exposures to health experiences before deciding whether medicine is right choice for them. Don't do medicine just because you think you will make alot $$$.

Hospital is my home, and patients are my family members. Love them and live with them.🙄[/QUOTE]


Oh christ....I think/hope that is sarcasm 🙄

 

[womp]

I've just realized that I don't enjoy hospitals at all, beign around sick and weak people... it's not nice and all the on calls are too much sacrifice how can people expect me to work 36 hrs in a round? that's impossible. I'm feeling truly confused because I wanted to be a doctor all my life but now I see how hard it is, sometimes I think it's impossible to memorize everything I have to. And my hypocondria is getting worse, I can't see any sick person because I get afraid same happens to me. Has anyone felt this way??

Be a tele-radiologist.

 

[Emerald84]

twittering would be a nicer way to waste your time

 

[andie gustafson]

psych2014 you're right I haven't said thank you, I was having a rough time, I've gotten better. Thank you all because I needed to hear experiences like these.

 

[Psych2014]

psych2014 you're right I haven't said thank you, I was having a rough time, I've gotten better. Thank you all because I needed to hear experiences like these.

Hey Andie, I want to apologize. After reading your post, I went up and read mine, about you not saying thanks, and that was really selfish and immature of me, absurd really. I don't know you and I'm sorry you're having a rough time. All the best. I'm Glad things are going better for you.

 

[McGillGrad]

Hey Andie, I want to apologize. After reading your post, I went up and read mine, about you not saying thanks, and that was really selfish and immature of me, absurd really. I don't know you and I'm sorry you're having a rough time. All the best. I'm Glad things are going better for you.

You didn't say anything wrong.

 

[Psych2014]

Honestly, thanks for your opinion, but I know I violated my own code of ethics. I presumed that this person's silence meant he was insincere, and there is nothing to prove he's a troll or insincere, and frankly, I know it's best to give someone the benefit of the doubt. That's what I'd like.

 

[AllUpOnYoMama]

This is why medical schools require premed kids get some exposures to health experiences before deciding whether medicine is right choice for them. Don't do medicine just because you think you will make alot $$$.

Hospital is my home, and patients are my family members. Love them and live with them.🙄

Jesus! What a douche bag post. The OP never mentioned anything about money.