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[scoopy]

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I began my clerkships this fall and I started with IM rotation. In this 1.5 month passed I didn’t study at all and I forget all those little things I studied here and there. This makes me furious!!
Why I can’t study! I don’t even know how should I study 🙁 I mean I forget 99% of everything I read during wards; this shouldn’t be this way, no? I can even say one disease as a differential diagnosis in rounds 🙁
I just want to be like all these doctors that with list of patient complains they list many of differential diagnosis, they know medicine inside out

The other problem with me is, well I don’t really know what’s wrong with me!! But I can’t make myself to go to patient’s room and take history or full physical exam .in all these 1.5 month I think I just get 9-10 history and most of them were after reading intern’s note in the chart. I don’t like to interview a patient that had been interviewed before at least 5 times.
This is bad 🙁 and I fear I will never be able to take a complete H&P.
I love doing procedures but I cannot ask my interns to let me do them 🙁

The other thing is I am med student in non English speaker country so all these H&P, SOAP, etc are not in English. I really love to practice writing them in English but I don’t know how 🙁

In one word I haven’t done anything since I start my rotation and I feel depressed, anxious and angry about it , And I really don’t know what and How to do 🙁
I REALLY HATE MYSELF
Maybe medicine is not right for me

Please help me
I don’t wanna be like this 🙁

 

[ringerslactate]

I began my clerkships this fall and I started with IM rotation. In this 1.5 month passed I didn’t study at all and I forget all those little things I studied here and there. This makes me furious!!
Why I can’t study! I don’t even know how should I study 🙁 I mean I forget 99% of everything I read during wards; this shouldn’t be this way, no? I can even say one disease as a differential diagnosis in rounds 🙁
I just want to be like all these doctors that with list of patient complains they list many of differential diagnosis, they know medicine inside out

The other problem with me is, well I don’t really know what’s wrong with me!! But I can’t make myself to go to patient’s room and take history or full physical exam .in all these 1.5 month I think I just get 9-10 history and most of them were after reading intern’s note in the chart. I don’t like to interview a patient that had been interviewed before at least 5 times.
This is bad 🙁 and I fear I will never be able to take a complete H&P.
I love doing procedures but I cannot ask my interns to let me do them 🙁

The other thing is I am med student in non English speaker country so all these H&P, SOAP, etc are not in English. I really love to practice writing them in English but I don’t know how 🙁

In one word I haven’t done anything since I start my rotation and I feel depressed, anxious and angry about it , And I really don’t know what and How to do 🙁
I REALLY HATE MYSELF
Maybe medicine is not right for me

Please help me
I don’t wanna be like this 🙁

Yeah, you should probably give up. Sounds like you're gonna crash and burn. Become a nurse or respiratory therapist or something. This is for all the self-loathing you troll! BOOO HOOOOO

LR

 

[DoctaJMa]

Yeah, you should probably give up. Sounds like you're gonna crash and burn. Become a nurse or respiratory therapist or something. This is for all the self-loathing you troll! BOOO HOOOOO

LR

Dont be such a jerk. Ur response is what people would call a troll. Trolls are not people that are asking for advice because they are in a panic.

Scoopy, I havent hit rotations yet, but there was a thread somewhere on here where there were other students having the same problem especially during their surgery rotation (eg. working for 12 hours and being so exhausted they didnt study). Their advice was to try and find downtime during your shift to use to read over material.

I think if you do a search you may be able to find the thread. Step back for a bit...take a deep breath...and refocus. If you can make it through the first two years then u should be able to make it through rotations. Look at how your schedule is and see if there are ways to adjust it to force yourself to study!

Good Luck! 😉

 

[cpants]

I began my clerkships this fall and I started with IM rotation. In this 1.5 month passed I didn’t study at all and I forget all those little things I studied here and there. This makes me furious!!
Why I can’t study! I don’t even know how should I study 🙁 I mean I forget 99% of everything I read during wards; this shouldn’t be this way, no? I can even say one disease as a differential diagnosis in rounds 🙁
I just want to be like all these doctors that with list of patient complains they list many of differential diagnosis, they know medicine inside out

The other problem with me is, well I don’t really know what’s wrong with me!! But I can’t make myself to go to patient’s room and take history or full physical exam .in all these 1.5 month I think I just get 9-10 history and most of them were after reading intern’s note in the chart. I don’t like to interview a patient that had been interviewed before at least 5 times.
This is bad 🙁 and I fear I will never be able to take a complete H&P.
I love doing procedures but I cannot ask my interns to let me do them 🙁

The other thing is I am med student in non English speaker country so all these H&P, SOAP, etc are not in English. I really love to practice writing them in English but I don’t know how 🙁

In one word I haven’t done anything since I start my rotation and I feel depressed, anxious and angry about it , And I really don’t know what and How to do 🙁
I REALLY HATE MYSELF
Maybe medicine is not right for me

Please help me
I don’t wanna be like this 🙁

BTW, copying a history from an interns chart is not getting a history. Calm down. You should be doing AT LEAST one history and physical every day and developing differentials for every patient, even if it's only in your head. You've wasted 1.5 months. Change that tomorrow. It's not hard. Take it one patient at a time. Start with "Why are you here?" Go from there. You'll get the hang of it. I know people throw around the you'll be a bad doctor thing all the time on here, but if you don't learn to do a proper h/ p and develop differentials, you truly will be a bad doctor, if you end up making it at all.

 

[scoopy]

BTW, copying a history from an interns chart is not getting a history. Calm down. You should be doing AT LEAST one history and physical every day and developing differentials for every patient, even if it's only in your head. You've wasted 1.5 months. Change that tomorrow. It's not hard. Take it one patient at a time. Start with "Why are you here?" Go from there. You'll get the hang of it. I know people throw around the you'll be a bad doctor thing all the time on here, but if you don't learn to do a proper h/ p and develop differentials, you truly will be a bad doctor, if you end up making it at all.

thanks, i will try my best from tomorrow
how should i study? i don't thing just reading the books gonna help me! ( it didn't so far!)
any good way to develop good skill for figuring differentials?

 

[MexicanDr]

thanks, i will try my best from tomorrow
how should i study? i don't thing just reading the books gonna help me! ( it didn't so far!)
any good way to develop good skill for figuring differentials?

Which country are you at? Are you familiar or know their language?

 

[scoopy]

Which country are you at? Are you familiar or know their language?

yes i study med in my home country, well actually i have problem with practice medicine in English. I read all the text book in English and my English is not bad (listening, speaking) but i don't know why i really afraid to write notes in English !!!!
what can i do about this 🙁?

 

[MexicanDr]

Why are you scared of writing in English? If it is because possible grammatical errors, you dont need to worry, practice makes perfect. Remember, if you make a mistake, someone will bring it up, dont take it seriously, its constructive criticism which at the end is benefiting you.

The more you are exposed to it, the better it will be. Believe me, i came to this country not knowing a single word in English and even though I am far from perfect, I feel pretty comfortable already. Trust in yourself and do it, the worst that is going to happen is that you will get corrected, which at the end will only benefit you. 🙂

 

[gstrub]

yes i study med in my home country, well actually i have problem with practice medicine in English. I read all the text book in English and my English is not bad (listening, speaking) but i don't know why i really afraid to write notes in English !!!!
what can i do about this 🙁?

You can sit in on a 6th grade English class, or practice medicine in a country where they speak your language.

Thanks for StepII CS, BTW.

 

[Jamers]

I began my clerkships this fall and I started with IM rotation. In this 1.5 month passed I didn’t study at all and I forget all those little things I studied here and there. This makes me furious!!
Why I can’t study! I don’t even know how should I study 🙁 I mean I forget 99% of everything I read during wards; this shouldn’t be this way, no? I can even say one disease as a differential diagnosis in rounds 🙁
I just want to be like all these doctors that with list of patient complains they list many of differential diagnosis, they know medicine inside out

The other problem with me is, well I don’t really know what’s wrong with me!! But I can’t make myself to go to patient’s room and take history or full physical exam .in all these 1.5 month I think I just get 9-10 history and most of them were after reading intern’s note in the chart. I don’t like to interview a patient that had been interviewed before at least 5 times.
This is bad 🙁 and I fear I will never be able to take a complete H&P.
I love doing procedures but I cannot ask my interns to let me do them 🙁

The other thing is I am med student in non English speaker country so all these H&P, SOAP, etc are not in English. I really love to practice writing them in English but I don’t know how 🙁

In one word I haven’t done anything since I start my rotation and I feel depressed, anxious and angry about it , And I really don’t know what and How to do 🙁
I REALLY HATE MYSELF
Maybe medicine is not right for me

Please help me
I don’t wanna be like this 🙁

Well, I am pretty sure this is fake but I'll bite. You will forget the majority of what you read; its called being human. The people that get good at something are the people that consistantly repeat things. There also has to be a level of intrest and some stress for you to learn; for example, cardiology stressed me out but I was interested in it so I remember a lot of it but I forgot nearly everything about surgery even though it was stressful. You read what you can on rotations. I have found that printing out a number of up-to-date articles and reading them at the end of a week or two helps. I do this only with the things I keep seeing and/or don't understand very well. Finally, for a differential list, try the I's: Infection, Infarction, Ischemia, Intoxication, Injury, Idiopathic, and the Idon'tknowsits (random crap like PE's or effects of HIV).

 

[scoopy]

Thank you all for Inspiring Me and motivating.

and Jamershttp://forums.studentdoctor.net/member.php?u=84319 its not fake, believe it or not

 

[scoopy]

so about how to study

our school didn't have any PBL sessions or like that, so i thought maybe i can start studying like that myself
pick a case and try to learn from that
do think this will work?

how do you guys study during your rotations?

 

[AzimiMD]

you need to build on your foundation of basic sciences, then you will always try to write some differential diagnosis even if your not writting...

Step I as i remembered it made sure basic sciences are inforced uppon us, step II wasnt even clinical it was step I with some new stuff about physical diagnosis and treatment...

now how u shoudl study, build a strong basic science's..