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Ok I will give you some insight into my whole experience. Before going into Medical School I was the sort of person who had gone through a lot of BAD THINGS through life. I lost my Mom at age 5 and my Indian Dad didn't carry quiet a well the job of raising me. The only thing he taught me was study, study, study as if that were the only important thing to strive for in life. There is no question that I totally lacked proper social skills because of the environment I was raised. In addition, he was the kind of person who always scorned me if I got B's or C's during elementary, junior and high school. Even when I got the A's he would say that I had to get perfect and strive to be #1 in my class. He always downplayed my achievements because I never was #1. Can u believe this BS? He has always treated me like a small child even through undergrad. I was pushed into Medical School by him. It was a way of he trying to fix the mistakes he made in his life of not having studied medicine. Before going into Med school I was the sort of person that was very sensitive to criticism because also I had been bullied a lot in High School. As a consequence, I suffered from a lack of self-esteem and even ended up taking Antidepressants several times during college. Medschool was the catalyst that definitely made me crack up. During the 2nd year of Medical School it came to a point that I couldn't take it anymore because of the grades I was getting, being always criticized and humiliated by Faculty members, and having the constant backstabbing of your fellow classmates. Oh believe me it is literally the survival of the fittest. My severe anxiety and constant stress led me to the point of retaliating against the faculty and I almost thought of dropping out. In my personal opinion, many Medical Doctors are only in for the prestiege and money that the profession brings. They think that they are better than the rest of the people in the world. Yeah right. I was able to barely make it through Med School just passing everything with average and slightly above average gradess. Today I am a Medical Graduate who still doesn't have a job because I didn't match last year. In other words, after having busted my butt for 4 years, sometimes only sleeping 2-3 hours or being completely sleep deprivated I can definitely say it was all for a VANE purpose. Just as the war taking place today in which Billions of Dollars are wasted and thousands of lives are lost for a VANE purpose. We have all become slaves of this capitalist sytem which makes us waste our lives making money to then consume it in Big Houses, Fancy Cars, etc. Is it all worth it? I don' t think so. This has been the worst nightmare in my life. I still don't have a girlfriend, I still am not earning money, and even when I get into residency it will be like another 4-5 before I start earning a decent salary. All this experience has been hell for me. I hate my Dad, I hate my family, I hate our government, I hate my life. If I could make one wish come true It would definitely be to not have been born in this world.... I could keep going on, but I think that what I have written is depressing enough... Flames as always are welcomed. You can give me your best shot.