I'm a sophomore at a public university My freshman year was sad. GPA not nearly as close as what I hoped for. My overall gpa is currently 2.5 after three semesters. I really want to go in psychiatry, however, I don't know if I'm willing to work my ass off to get there. My heart is there but my discipline is not. I'm not disciplined. I push off studying til couple days or even the day before the test, I live by instant gratification. When I actually sit down to study, I don't even get a lot of work done. In addition, I have some sort of social anxiety disorder or something. I'm a shy type of person... I'm even afraid to walk to classes on campus in fear that someone might judge me. I don't know what it is. Even when I go to class, I sit near the back. I can't concentrate on school or anything because of this. All this extra pressue doesn't help me. I don't know if you guys feel where I'm coming from. It's more serious than it sounds which I won't go too much in details about. This psychiatric disorder is fairly common but I'm really really sick of it. I want to move on and be comfortable around social settings, and be myself. Why am I so worried about these trivial things but I can't seem to get over it. And yet, I'm only a bio major..... I switched my major about three times already. I honestly felt that biology was the major for me but I'm having doubts about that. I'm worried about if I'll ever make it into a med school and get to pursue a career that satisfies me and me only. I don't want to settle for less. I want a job that makes an impact on people's lives and community, which I find that medicine suits me well. I'm losing motivation. people say "just get 4.0 gpa's from here on out and you'll be golden! And score a 30+ on the mcats!" but i find that difficult to do. Will i ever grow up and learn that I have to bust my ass to get what I want? What frustrates me is that I'm not trying my HARDEST to excel but at the same time, I tell myself all these things but I can't carry them out!. My only plan is to try to raise my GPA as much as I can before I graduate from this undergraduate institution, then either take a break from school working and volunteering, or go to a grad school program (if they accept me)... and I guess my life goes on from there. Hopefully get a seat in a med school and pursue the career that I wanted to from the beginning.