So I failed Step 1 twice and passed on the 3rd attempt. I had it pretty rough during my pre-clinical portion of my med school career. My father had an MI, a childhood friend committed suicide and I had an engagement fall apart on me. I was depressed and ultimately unmotivated. I was not ready at all the first time I took my exam and did so because I had no idea how important it was, to me it was just a test (how wrong I clearly am). I took time off of school since I knew I had to get myself right. I took the test a second time only to hold my spot at my medschool, and again I failed it (I know it was a dumb move, but hindsight is 20/20 I guess) The third time I took my exam I finally did pass but very low (192). At this point in my career I hated medicine and just wanted the MD and hopefully just to an intern year somewhere to later say to hell with medicine and do something else (pharm/jd/etc.). I realized however that it was me causing most of my problems, I let my attitude about my father and friend ruin my relationship, and my building negativity engulf me and my views on medicine. So after getting my head screwed on straight I decided to try and shadow as many doctors as I could to see if there was a field of medicine I like....and as it turns it I fell in love with PM&R. To me it is the perfect blend of several field of medicine with some of the most motivated patients I have seen! I continued to work in that physiatrists office 2 days a week for the past 5 months. I am also involved in 2 research projects which have solidified my love for PM&R even more. I have been studying for step 2 and have passed an NBME but clearly I recognize I need to get higher then just passing. With my leave of absence finishing up soon and rotations starting asides from what I am doing now is there anymore I can do (now or before I apply) or more importantly is this EVEN POSSIBLE WITH MY CRAPPY RECORD??? Also I am a US student at an MD school (to help give further background on me)
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!