I’m an older non traditional woman who had her first child btwn my 1st/2nd year. I am struggling with balancing medical school and contemplating the realities of the future (ie residency) and how it will dramatically impact my family in a negative way. Is the pain of residency worth it if you don’t need the income?
For context, becoming a doctor will make 0 impact on my families finances. My husband makes $$ that I don’t need to work and can have anything I want. Becoming a doctor is purely for my personal happiness but it only benefits me. It is a net negative for my family…I also want another child and imagining having one during residency gives me so much anxiety. I know this is such a personal decision. But if you didn’t need the money, is residency worth the pain and sacrifices of being away from your family?
I'll give you my perspective as a woman, a doctor, medical director, and someone whose gone through IVF in order to have kiddos. Question that has been mentioned to you is, first do you want to be a doctor? If the answer is *no* then yes quitting now makes sense. If wanting to be a doctor is someone important to you, then realistically the pains of med school/residency are generally worth it. If you want to be a doctor but are concerned as to when you have kids/more kids, that's a different question to ask. The rest of your plan really depends on answer to question #1.
I was speaking with my husband about this recently in fact, and saying that there really is never a "good time" to have kids per se - particularly for women in medicine. As a med student they say oh it's too hard during med school. In residency, it's tough because of all the responsibilities. In fellowship, it's a short time so dont want to screw that up. As an attending, you'll "screw over" your colleagues if you take time off for kids. So the answer in my mind is to have kids at a time where you and your spouse feel it's the right time. Medicine is busy - whether in med school or as an attending, and there is no perfect time. I think that the pain of med school and residency is temporary - I'm sure it's challenging with a kiddo. But it's also challenging when you are an attending, or in a leadership position. Med school and residency pass, but if you throw med school and/or residency out, as someone else mentioned, that boat will sail and it will be very difficult to get back. Of course if you don't want to be a doctor, that doesn't matter.
If you want to be a doctor, I'd say stick it out with med school and residency and find the support needed to have someone help you in the process - spouse, parents, siblings, nannies, etc. There are plenty of residents who have kids during residency and manage to make it fine. As someone said also think long term - will you be a stay at home mom? Will that make you happy? What happens when the kids are older and don't need the constant assistance? I have step kiddos and the older ones don't require much help. Will you be happy giving up a medical career that will span your life when your kids might be out by 18, 20, etc and have their own life?
What happens if you get divorced - sure your husband makes a good income but if you divorced/he passed, who will provide for you and your kids? If you quit Medicine and stay at home, will your husband be ok with it? Will he be ok with you staying at home? Some husbands are ok, some are not. If he's not ok with it, will that impact your decision?
So I'd say you gotta decide whether being a doctor is important to you, and have a conversation with your husband to see what he feels about this too.