It's all crashing down now...

[ajh88]

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OK, so I'm almost done with the first semester of my first year of school. I should be pretty happy and satisfied I survived, right? I am so NOT feeling like that!

I am freaking out about every little thing - my grades, my job, what the hell I'm doing, etc. I left a well-paying, secure, "good" job for school. I was so focused on getting into school for the last year and then anticipating school starting, I think I forgot to think about the negative impact of me returning to school. I have an exam on Monday and I haven't even started studying yet and I can't seem to get going for it. And don't get me wrong, I am actually enjoying school (to the extent it can be enjoyed anyway).

I think the biggest issue for me is work. I've been in a retail job as a technician for about a year. I don't *love* it, but I like it well enough. I started a hospital job about 2 months ago. I really thought it would be the ultimate job and I always pictured myself working in more of a hospital setting when I finish school. Well, it sucks so much! I'm just barely stopping short of saying I truly hate it. Now, I know I'm working as a tech now and the pharmacists' roles are different, but it is making me question my whole future. I could work retail forever and feel at least partially fulfilled and satisfied, so I guess that's a start. I just feel completely disillusioned about what I had built hospital pharmacy up to be in my mind and what it is really like - maybe my hospital is just not that great. 😕

OK, vent over - back to studying.

 

[jawnly211]

wow

why are you stressing so much? did you really think hospital pharmacy was going to be THAT great?

yea, u are currently working as a tech at the hospital, but at least wait until you do a few institutional rotations before you make a total judgment that you "HATE" it

also, you have ALL weekend to study for your exam on monday.........plenty of time...........

it amazes me how much stress people put on themselves in only their first semester of yr 1

my motto thru pharm school was :

one thing at a time

it worked for me..........cruised through the first 3 years..........worked retail part time..........and now rotations are a breeze..........

yea, not everyone is as laid back as me.........yea, i hella stressed with life and work...........but like i said, ONE THING AT A TIME

good luck...........and don't make any judgments YET about retail or hospital until you have finished a couple rotations

 

[heatherkmd]

Where are you in school? I could have written your post word for word~ except the part about the hospital...just insert full time job with two kids and a husband and home to take care of! It has been a rough semester, but we are both almost done! Good luck studying!

 

[drugdoc]

Hi Amy! I'm all ears if you want to school email me. I feel your stress with this upcoming exam. We just got thru 5/6 big midterms in the last 3 weeks, and now an incredibly HUGE biochem one, that I don't feel half as confident about as the last ones!! I've been saying for days that I could study for a week straight for this one and probably still not feel ready 🙁 I would assume that most of us are in that boat! We'll get thru it, though, somehow....??!!

 

[WVUPharm2007]

Chill....you know how many folks would kill to have a guaranteed 6 figs just in 3.5 years? You got it made, just rough it out until then.

 

[BidingMyTime]

Is it the job itself or your co-workers that are stressing you? Some workplaces are extremely clique-ish makign it very hard for a new person to fit in. Workflow can be completely different from one hospital to another (I've worked in 4 different hospitals and each one had its own distinct personality.) I wouldn't give up on hospital yet. Likewise retail environments also vary greatly. If you enjoy the core competencies of the job, you'll be fine. It's pretty much the norm for people to try several jobs before they find the environment which clicks for them.

 

[Aznfarmerboi]

Chill....you know how many folks would kill to have a guaranteed 6 figs just in 3.5 years? You got it made, just rough it out until then.

But then according to the naysayers due to walmart 4 dollar generic plan, pbm abuse, mail order, waves of fresh students graduating,. . . the poster might not even get a job.