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Originally posted by tkim6599
Oh you got a couple more years than that - my wife is pregnant with our first at 36. Increased age *does* increase risk, but not as much as it used to.

- Tae
Tae, thanks for the encouragement! I'm hoping that since I'm prettty healthy and have never had an abortion or used contraceptives/hormones, that I can squeeze out several more years beyond 35.

Congrats on your baby! Have you picked a name after polling in the lounge?
 
Originally posted by tkim6599
Why, yes - look to my avatar on the left. 😉

- Tae
Great choice to go w/ your last name! (Can't believe I missed it earlier--I'm a bit out of it on the weekends)
 
Originally posted by Nefertari
Great choice to go w/ your last name! (Can't believe I missed it earlier--I'm a bit out of it on the weekends)

Aren't we all ... 😀

- Tae
 
Hi everybody,
I have been off SDN for a while now. Didn't check email or SDN for 4 days--that's a new record for me. In any case, I just have a few things to say before I get all mushy again.

A big thank you to each and every person that responded back to me, either on PM or on this thread. I had no idea this one message would get to so many of you. It's funny how we underestimate ourselves, isn't it? I just assumed my thread was going to waste away within a day or two. so, thank you for those of you that took the time to write back--whether it was a kick in my butt or a gentle nudge to keep going, or even sharing your stories. Every one of your posts helped me. Each and every one.

I can't believe I felt so lost only 5 days ago. I thought I wouldn't even have the energy or motivation to think about reapplying. I went out of the premed "phase" for a while and started looking at my options--pharmacy, med tech, etc etc. You know what I realized? None of that appeals to me. None of that will make me do what *I* want to do with the rest of my life. And if I go into this right now, I am only going to repent it 10 years from now with a job that I am not fulfilled with. The end result--I have realized that I can't give up. There is nothing really I can do, or will be able to do with as much passion as Medicine. It is as much a part of me as is my husband. My "dream" has as much of life and breath in it as I do, and as long as I have the abilty to read, write and THINK for myself, I will know that there is no other option available for me but Medicine.

I don't know how I'm going to achieve it. I don't know when I'll get it. But I think I have realized in the last few days that my hands and legs would have to be chopped off before I even think about giving up because like i said....there is nothing else I would rather do. Right now, I'm tired. I'm broke. I'm angry and confused. I had given it my 100% to make sure I am not a reapplicant, but maybe this is a process that requires 110% of yourself. Maybe it's supposed to be so grueling and arduous that when in the end you do have this privilege to cure, you will honor and almost....worship it. I know I will. I have no other words right now except to say.....THANK YOU.

Good night.
Tweetie
 
that's good news tweetie. glad to hear you're going to keep fighting. Good luck to you. You'll be fine and you'll make it as a doctor for all the right reasons.
 
yeah tweets...
i am glad that you have not given up on your dreams... see in med school in the future.
:clap:
 
I am glad to see that you are coping, Tweetie. I know that this has to be a very rough time for you right now. I just hope that the adcom at the school that rejected you is looking at this thread and wondering what kind of mistake they made by not accepting you. When the time comes, you WILL be a physician and if you are anything like your posts, you will be a very caring, competent doctor in the future.
 
I used to post here a few years ago. Back then, I truly wanted to attend medical school, but for some reason, I gave up on that dream and took what I thought would be an easier route. Unfortunately, I still deeply want to attend medical school - it's what I consider to be my calling - and I still browse this board now and again.

I read your post, Tweetie, and had to register simply to give a reply. No other thread in about three years has moved me to do this.

Right now, I'm in graduate school doing something other than medicine. I believed that medical school was too big a dream for me to hold, since I had two children and a wife who needed supporting. I went to law school instead.

I'm almost finished with law school. It's okay, but I understand as much as anyone on this board that medicine is a calling. Unlike other callings (e.g. from God), medicine isn't something that everyone who is called can end up doing. Sure, med school rejects could become nurses and PAs, but you know as well as I do that these other careers aren't what you were meant to be doing. The same with law for me - I know that it's not what I was called to do. It's making me deeply unhappy.

Right now, I'm $60,000 in debt from law school, and I'll be about $100,000 in debt by the time I finish. I'll end up working as a lawyer, and this is not appealing whatsoever. Sure, law is a job that many people would die to have, but not me. I would die to be in any one of your shoes right now, just to have a shot at medical school. I'm also seriously considering cutting my losses with law school, throwing that $60,000 down the drain, and getting back to medical school applications.

I am so unhappy with my decision to not go for medical school that I drink every evening and free afternoon (although not to the point of utter drunkenness - just to the point of making me forget my mistake). I also have to take sleeping pills most nights. I can't concentrate at school, and my performance is poor at the best of times. I just don't think I can be bothered with anything but medicine. I know that I made the wrong decision, and it has been the worst mistake of my life.

I can't impress upon you enough that you should not quit what you have worked so hard to do. Retake some of your science classes if you have poor grades. Do a post-bac at a school with an attached medical school. Do a masters. Study from today until the next MCAT from 9 in the morning to 5 in the evening six days a week. You can't give up on this.

There's clearly something wrong with your applications to have so many rejections. Find out what that is and correct it. Then reapply.

I've figured out that I'll be about 40 years old before I can get back to my plans for medical school. I regret every minute that I decided to take the 'easy' way out and forget medical school. Don't end up in my position.

Good luck with whatever you decide.
 
Tweetie:

Good to hear that you've come to your senses and will continue to pursue your dream! Otherwise, I'd have to find someone else to treat me and my family! 😉

- Tae
 
emc9,

God bless you. God will help you in whatever you do...and will certainly help you fulfill your calling from Him! 🙂
 
So - we can change the thread - to it's starting anew! Good luck Tweetie! I am happy to hea that through your soul searching you decided to hang in there!
 
Welcome back Tweets! 😀
 
Hi Tweetie,
It's nice to see you post again! :clap: I understand about taking a break from SDN-- it can be so demoralizing sometimes to see all those stellar applicants! 😳

I'm also a reapplicant, and having learned so much about myself and done so many cool things since my first application, I wouldn't have had it any other way. 🙂 But I know how arduous and mentally difficult this whole process is. If you need a confidante, please PM me.

It's wonderful to see you remain determined. :clap: Way to go girl! You should definitely seek out 1) what were the weaknesses in your app, and 2) ways to improve them. A post-bac/masters program may or may not be necessary. Ask admissions committees at all the schools where you applied, ask me, ask the SDNers.

But above all, do something unrelated to medicine that you absolutely LOVE! and keep at it. Not because it will bolster your reapplication, but in spite of the reapplication. God knows you need a break.

Take care!
sunflower79
 
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