I used to post here a few years ago. Back then, I truly wanted to attend medical school, but for some reason, I gave up on that dream and took what I thought would be an easier route. Unfortunately, I still deeply want to attend medical school - it's what I consider to be my calling - and I still browse this board now and again.
I read your post, Tweetie, and had to register simply to give a reply. No other thread in about three years has moved me to do this.
Right now, I'm in graduate school doing something other than medicine. I believed that medical school was too big a dream for me to hold, since I had two children and a wife who needed supporting. I went to law school instead.
I'm almost finished with law school. It's okay, but I understand as much as anyone on this board that medicine is a calling. Unlike other callings (e.g. from God), medicine isn't something that everyone who is called can end up doing. Sure, med school rejects could become nurses and PAs, but you know as well as I do that these other careers aren't what you were meant to be doing. The same with law for me - I know that it's not what I was called to do. It's making me deeply unhappy.
Right now, I'm $60,000 in debt from law school, and I'll be about $100,000 in debt by the time I finish. I'll end up working as a lawyer, and this is not appealing whatsoever. Sure, law is a job that many people would die to have, but not me. I would die to be in any one of your shoes right now, just to have a shot at medical school. I'm also seriously considering cutting my losses with law school, throwing that $60,000 down the drain, and getting back to medical school applications.
I am so unhappy with my decision to not go for medical school that I drink every evening and free afternoon (although not to the point of utter drunkenness - just to the point of making me forget my mistake). I also have to take sleeping pills most nights. I can't concentrate at school, and my performance is poor at the best of times. I just don't think I can be bothered with anything but medicine. I know that I made the wrong decision, and it has been the worst mistake of my life.
I can't impress upon you enough that you should not quit what you have worked so hard to do. Retake some of your science classes if you have poor grades. Do a post-bac at a school with an attached medical school. Do a masters. Study from today until the next MCAT from 9 in the morning to 5 in the evening six days a week. You can't give up on this.
There's clearly something wrong with your applications to have so many rejections. Find out what that is and correct it. Then reapply.
I've figured out that I'll be about 40 years old before I can get back to my plans for medical school. I regret every minute that I decided to take the 'easy' way out and forget medical school. Don't end up in my position.
Good luck with whatever you decide.