In medical school we are learning the importance of holistic medicine-treating the patient as a whole. Now my experience as a patient has confused me about this whole idea of holistic medicine. This is difficult for me to talk about. But, I will say it anyway: I went to see an internist and ended up telling him that I attempted suicide 11 years ago. He did not seem too interested in what I had to say. He just wanted to get back to my cold symptoms. In most of my office visits with him, he had the time to talk to me about his family and other things. I feel disappointed and confused: I am trying to deal with my bad experience with "unholistic medicine" while learning the practice of holistic medicine.